Just confused over mixed signals.

I'm still fucking miserable over a guy who I shouldn't be. Just want cigarettes and friends.

And I wish I could make him see that I think he is one of most interesting guys I've met in a long time.

It's often the things in life we want the most that we can't have.

I'm am 22 and I don't have my whole life figured out yet.

I'm okay with that.

I'm going to learn to become the bigger person; let old and dumb grudges go for stupid things that happened years ago. Stop being a cold bitch to certain people. Become Anew. A breath of fresh air!

I'm walking around dazed as of recent. I'm doing things, but not noticing them. Driving, working; there is no thought put into these tasks. Mere mechanics. I start thinking that I should feel nervous but I'm too tired or apathetic to be nervous. Disconnection. Music plays in the background like a soundtrack, lyrics singing to me "Wishing you were ( Read more... )

Work is making me sick. Managers are leaving, my supervisor got fired and she hasn't responded to my messages, i'm working 31 hours with one day off and training two newbies. I'm getting sick to my stomach from not know WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON!

Wishing I could see my friends more often. Wishing work wasn't so poisonous. Wishing that school didn't start in a few weeks. Wishing I could have gone to China. Wishing for simpler times, really.

Nothing feels better than driving around the valley at 2 in the morning smoking cigarettes, listening to loud ridiculous music, and drinking a strawberry milkshake.