Rules:

001. Pick your birth month.

002. Strike out anything that does not apply to you.

003. Bold the 5-10 that best apply to you.

004. Copy to your own journal, and paste all months under an lj-cut.

MAY:

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings ( Read more... )

i hate being here.

i absolutely hate being here.

home and online

I HATE IT.

PEOPLE DISSAPPOINT ME.

i'm so used to it though.

i feel like i should be writhing around on the floor and screaming my lungs out.

sheer stupidity of a smart girl.

bestfriend? i'm losing respect for you.

i shouldnt make time for this anymore.

i should become addicted to tv again or ( Read more... )

i love the fact that everyone hates the notion of me even talking to him.
it gives me some sense of protection.
i've always been one of the oldest among my family so to feel like the little one in my form of a surrogate family is nice.

And I can't pretend that I don't see this
It's really not your fault
No one cares to talk about it,
talk about it

and i ( Read more... )

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i fucking miss him.

so i was pretty fuccked up last night

it was crazy

ask me in person for entire details though

ommmmmmmmmg craziest night of the year so far.

[edit]

as i was drunk

i think in the entire experience of last night

i woke up this morning,

and he was like wiped from my memory

for the first time in months

HE  is not my first thought when i wake up.

i hope it ( Read more... )

 i wonder what drove me to do all the things i did.

it was all out of character for me and none of it should have happened.

i'd apologize if i thought it would be accepted.

sorry robert, for y'know

even though in my eyes you still did a lot wrong you insensitive shit.

sorry kyle for leading you on

ugh just sorry for all the bullshit i pulled over the ( Read more... )

i've never felt so cold-hearted sitting in a theater.

i've never felt so cold-hearted period.

memory is a horrible curse.

and when i'm out with my friends, i hate bringing down the mood.

it's a challenge to make me seem like i'm happy.  i don't want to be anyone's responsibility.

i'm so sick of this feeling.

the thing that sucks about being somewhat a trendsetter,

PEOPLE COPY YOUR SHIT.

and you won't be credited.

today would not be a smart day ot fuck with me.

so anyway. i walked to school with chelsea from starbucks. and because they were locked out of the store till like 7, we got free coffe and stuff. i got a venti green tea frappucino.

i love how its like break up season. i know so many couples and almost couples that've broken up within the last 2 weeks.

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