I can't believe it made me cry... Lately dinner has been fend-for-yourself. No one notices if you eat, if you don't, or maybe then just don't care. I hate it. It feels like I'm not wanted at all, like they're trying to push me as far as I can go. It's not just me either, my twelve year old sister has to fend too... God this sucks.

Fighting it seems to be becoming harder, hell; life's becoming harder. God I just want to rewind to before this all started, or fast-forward to when it all ends, because this is becoming too much for me ( Read more... )

I'm at my sister's right now and I have until New Year's to find a job. This should be easy, but it seems I can never do anything I'm supposed to. All I want to do is sleep all day and listen to music. Of course I know this isn't possible, it just makes people mad at me; and yell at me ( Read more... )

Sometimes I think I'd rather die then stay here ( Read more... )

I think that mom needs some 'professional help'. She's been snapping at me, Kevin, and Kellie all day. Like fuck! I that I don't do anything, and that I'm not doing well in school, and that I sleep as much as I can, I know that it's all my fault that she's bitchy and stressed, and anything else she can think to blame on me ( Read more... )

AHHHH! The cap on my fountain pen is cracked D ( Read more... )

I would have added this yesterday, but I went to bed as soon as I got home. They let me into that special class, that's where I am right now actually, I started yesterday, although I didn't really want to.. Um.. I mean that in the sense that I was (and am) tired, plus I went to the clinic Tuesday and it seems I have an ear infection, lovely. So now ( Read more... )

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It seems that any excitement I had for starting school has been mysteriously disappearing. I'm actually scared, again, but of course no one would notice, why would they? It's normal for a teenager to not want to go to school, it's normal to be moody, and depressed, and sad, and to get worked up over little things... *sigh* Whatever.. I guess there' ( Read more... )

You Are 70% Weird
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