Well it's been awhile.
I've been keeping busy. Life has been good. Not as good as I'd like, but good.

Broke up with Geoff last month (Nov. 7th). Big news eh.

I now find myself in the arms of someone who feels familiar. The only difference is, this one really loves me.

I'm really happy. With him. There are other things that could be better, but he's ( Read more... )

Yup. Lame
I'm lame

I cried all Sunday. Geoff had to work, and it was our one year ani, but I don't think that was why I was crying.

It's the fact that I'm friendless. Or, well, thats not completely true.

It seems as though I'm incapable of clicking a reply button, or picking up a phone.

I appreciate the occasional emails, but I find little more than 5 ( Read more... )

1. Go here.
2. Pass it on.
( my answers )

So its, pretty early. Nothing new to me, right? Have to work at 10, which is kind of different, but not notably so. Geoff woke up at 5:30, rushed off to work at 6:30. I'm feeling kind of miserable. Was sprawled on the couch earlier, staring at static on mute. Lacking any sort of motivation really. In a hazy post-slumber state with a cigarette lit ( Read more... )

heyo. long time no see eh.
Wow. well that was lame.

I decided I need to post more, cause really, I don't type anymore, and I used to able to type like CRAZY. Yes, crazy.

Wow, even my vocabulary is lacking now. No wonder I came in second at Scrabble yesterday.

Ya, so whats new?:

My hair is a red/brown right now. No more black...for atleast five years.

Um ( Read more... )

So I got off my ass today and went job hunting at Rideau. Picked up some applications, also have to go in on a weekday and see some managers. Things are looking promising.

I'm still bummed out though.

I just wish life was a little better. I wish Geoff had a job. I wish we could move out together.

I just wish I could change things. Faster that is.

Well thats awee bit inconsiderate.

Over the years, I've just noticed, some people just think everyone can just wake up and solve their problems if they just try.

I do fuckin' try ok. I spend my small paycheque (250$) on rent, studio payments, groceries, and once a month I buy one thing (ex. a toaster, kettle, kitchen set), so that when I am kicked ( Read more... )

Life seems to be a little charged as of lately, everything a little trying.

Its just hard.

Having until February to find a new place to live (he's kicking us all out), being stuck at a dead end job, never able to save any money, never having enough energy.

Its constant routine, constant failure, disappointment.

I can't help but feel a little ( Read more... )

I've failed in life, and I don't know if I'll ever be able to get back on track again.

I hate him so much.

My father that is.

No, this didn’t just happened. You know it. It’s always been like this. I’m constantly grinding my teeth and dreading my life because of him.

He just could never deal with the fact that maybe I’m not a fuck up just in spite of his efforts.

My whole life; any success, any dream, any ambition. It’s all in spite. I’ ( Read more... )