To Those in the Know

[hail_st_joseph]

I've been smoking in hospital. In bed. What a filthy bugger. Jordan would be livid. Can't help it.

Thomas came by to visit me today. Told me about some recording and I actually felt anger. Feeling something was good. Even if that was what it was. I can't imagine. Just...god. Having to watch someone you love die

Comments

[suave_thomas]

Oh, that face means I was looking at Spectre or Mary. That's my love face.

I'm okay, Joe. You'll be okay too. And yes...grateful not every sadistic fuckhole is as sadistic as Amaris.

[hail_st_joseph]

I think it's extremely endearing that you know your 'love face' considering you cannot see your own face. You got it though, you were smiling at Spectre.

Yeah, well. Mmm.

[suave_thomas]

I know, woe is me, I can't see my face. If you think I don't look in a mirror every time I possibly can, you'd be wrong...

I'm being so completely serious. It's a good thing I don't take myself seriously in my seriousness...

[hail_st_joseph]

Hah! I know you are, Thomas. I really know.

I remember the day Adam and I removed the bathroom mirror and you had a little tanty and neither Abby nor Ellie really cared.

[in_spectre_mors]

Beautiful. Absolutely beautiful. By which I mean both the picture, and what it inspired in you.

Seeing that filth was something I'll never forget. But we did it for Tasha.

[hail_st_joseph]

I think it's pretty beautiful that he knew exactly what he was doing in the photo too. That's special, and thus makes it even more inspiring.

I know why. I would have done it too, had I been there. But I'm glad I wasn't. I don't think it would have done me any good, especially not right now.

[in_spectre_mors]

Absolutely. I know and love that look well, and it makes me very special indeed to know that Thomas can see it, and know exactly what it means.

I know you would have, Joe. And I absolutely agree with you. You're an excellent man for the fact that you would have been willing anyway.

[hail_st_joseph]

Well I think you're special!

..in the good way...

I'm just glad he didn't watch it alone. Not that it needed to be inflicted on others...

[seminalsemiotic]

Your Mums is very wise. I'm glad things are moving along for you, Joe *snuggles*

[hail_st_joseph]

She is. And that they are.

Honey, if you need anything, you know you can still come to me, right? I will try for you.

[seminalsemiotic]

I do. But thank you for saying it, Joe. That means so much to me. I really love you.

[hail_st_joseph]

I really love you too.

[gonetoground]

I've never doubted that you'll reach that place, Joe.

[hail_st_joseph]

Thank you, Alessa. I need that kind of faith.

[gonetoground]

We all go through times when we do. You're welcome, Joe.