For the record,

Bangs was spotted in the helm
i'd say around 6.30
and I've heard word he was
caught under a knife of a craszsy dopedealer

Things have began moving around. Even the screen. i'm going to go eat an apple.

tonight at home feels like being a kid. mom made chicken wild rice and green beans. we spent the afternoon and evening cleaning different corners of mess. dad isn't home. mom is mad and sad at the same time.

Guilt consumes me after I talk to you. Why should I feel that about my own decisions?

I feel very bad for writing this. Life is not beautiful. Life hurts me amber shade summer of science sleep autmn torches fall underswept this virginia fields of youth skies.

I'm really tired today. It could be from the pot brownie I ate shortly before falling to sleep last night. I just purchased a train ticket home for Sat, Jan 5. It's New Years Eve and Stephanie is down because she thinks I don't care as much as her about leaving Saint Paul. I do. But I'm also focusing on the positive things for me and her. I'm ( Read more... )

i hate reading my livejournal. i sound like a fucking bitch. putting people down. putting myself down. what the fuck is my problem?

Thank you Google for giving me information on how to get a good night sleep but how do I become an insomniac? I wish there was a step by step process available to develop an emotional problem that would destroy my life because that's what I feel I need right now.

this will be a frigid winter
i find myself wearing long johns or women's tights every morning
there is a hammock in the 4th floor
and a keyboard in the 3rd
i share a bed and room on the 2nd floor with
someone who tried to look up my underpants in 5th grade

they were fruit of the loom

This is where I prospectively see myself in May of 08.