3 days ago i was putting my youngest boy to bed and said to him your 9th bday is 3 days away how did you get so big just yesterday it seems i was feeding you a bottle and changing your diapers how did you get so big he looks at me w/ a straight face and said you blinked mom i laughed and kissed him goodnight my boy has become a smart ass like his ( Read more... )

have you ever wished you where a fly on the wall. well it aint a good thing i found a few things out and now i am upset and dont know what to do. i am glad i know but i wish i didnt as well some times its a bitch to be the fly.

Ok I am going to try 2 things I may need a little help. First thing I need to do is work on the way I see myself.People tell me I look good I don't fell that I do any help from anyone would be great. Two I have a half pack of smokes left and I went out and got nicotine gum so I am going to try to stop smoking.I don't know if I can do it but I am ( Read more... )

well the last few weeks have been hard on me i am going through another bad depresive cycel at the moment i hate everything about me and my life i dont like feeling like this i feel used its like everyone want so much all i hear is i want i need do this do that i fell in the shower this past weekend and hurt my knee i aint sleeping good and just ( Read more... )

grue and i went away it was great the travel was shity but the trip and people was the best.it was good to see happy and pixel again and to meet monkey cant wait to go again but next time it WILL NOT BE IN WINTER. the mall of america was very very big but i enjoyed it and drinking w/ monkey was a real treat all in all i had a wonderful time ( Read more... )

this it wishing every one a very happy thanksgiving may your day be a wonderful day filled w/ love and great food i am cooking for grues family and so i must finsh cooking just want to say have a wonderful day to all

hugs to all HT

we had a busy weekend grue was home friday yay.i worked sat and we spent the rest of sat w/ the kids. on sunday grue and i went out of town to vist friends we had a great time and i hope we helped them. was out late and didnt get much sleep i hope we can do this more offten w/ theses friends thay are awsome people ( Read more... )

well if you read grues lj then you know some of the weekend stuff ( Read more... )

i spent the weekend w/ grue we had some very long talks that help me in so many way . now we are better and thing look good it was the next step for me. i am seeing myself the way others do a bit more witch is a great thing couse i never liked myself .now i am starting to belive i am a good person that other people see me that way .i am PRETTY and ( Read more... )

well things are much improved from my last post. i am better and things have been fixed that needed to be so now i am working on trying to fix me a bit more i find i blow up about things that i realy shoulded blow up about we are working on that as well i have done a lot of looking at me and how i was and am now its scary to look back to see me as ( Read more... )