why am i the worst person in the world??

why do i tend to hurt the people i care about most??

everything seems so complicated. last night i didnt call amy and she got angry. yudkin was supposed to hang out with me and zach later but he found better plans until they fell through. i dont know if i hurt him somehow, but i probably did. my mom thinks i was drunk when i came home. which i was, ( Read more... )

oh boy work keeps me busy..i havent been out since i got home from new york. it might be better that way. its not like plainville has anything to offer me anyway. the other night my coworker whipped out a bottle of jack daniels and we mixed ourselves drinks. heh, the last hours of work flew by...nothing else fun happens at work though. i do like ( Read more... )

what a ridiculous weekend it was. i love going back to new york city. i love the excitement and all of the people. i felt at home as i stepped out of port authority. walking the streets of new york seemed natural. i dont get the same feeling when i come to plainville. i dread coming back. i like visiting..but i cant take it for more than a weekend ( Read more... )

the following is a short story written by franz kafka.
i read it while sitting in rockefeller center when i
got to new york this weekend. i looked extremely scenster
and awesome haha. but this is truly a great story.

The expulsion from Paradise is in its main significance eternal:
Consequently the expulsion from Paradise is final, and life in this ( Read more... )

i have his soul.

"vault

sealed everywhere and always

My Alexander _________
Nemkovich's Soul________
Belongs to me Alexander Nemkovich
Everywhere and Always!!!! (on this other side of this document)(over the other side)

Always!!!!"

this is what i found today. this is what i stole today. this is what i took today along with the treasury of clean jokes from ( Read more... )

stupid video store.
movies that they did not have so far:
-city lights
-the apartment
-8 1/2

boo blockbuster.

work is going well, i start real hours this thursday. i managed to get this coming weekend off. not really managed, i just wasnt scheduled so i got lucky. but next weekend aka 6 days is probably not going to work out. she said that i cant really ( Read more... )

i need to find friends that want to hang out with me. like my nyc friends. its funny, here, in plainville, i always feel like people make plans that dont involve me. maybe in new york i was the one to make plans, and then didnt involve other people...andrew and i were talking about a similar situation once, where if people have plans they really ( Read more... )

this time i made a mix that i'll actually give to him.
i think its the best one yet. and it has pretty sweet cover art.

tonight was alright, i saw l'enfant. it wasnt that great of a movie, i know what style they were going for. they wanted to be minimalistic and austere, but it ended up jsut being boring and ambiguous. not that theres anything wrong ( Read more... )

i made him a mix cd.
but im scared to give it to him.
i might not ever give it to him.
we'll see how things turn out, i guess..
maybe someday......

so today was my first day at work. ew, work. i work. i am a uniformed drone for a corporation. a corporation that feeds americans donuts and coffee. i hate my khakis. the manager is way too immature. the ( Read more... )