im not sure ill ever understand why it has to hurt so much, it makes me want ot become cold and bitter i guess all i ever did want was to b loved, maybe ill find it sometime down the road but for now it feels like the end of the world, i took my first driving lesson, it went well, shawns on his way down and im so happy to have a friend there ( Read more... )

theres so many things that go through my head during the day that i wish i put on paper or knew how to put into words, im not quite sure yet wats going on for my birthday im going to throw my own party that way i dont have to listen to my mom bitch i think im going to stick around the house until six that way i can be here for family and who ( Read more... )

ive figured it out i took your virginity,you got broken in, and now you want to go have sex with other poeple things would have been so much easyier if you put them in those terms the word love insted of being used in the correct manner only complicated things i dont doubt that at some point in the beginnig you loved me but truth be told it was ( Read more... )

here it is another wonderful sunday i miss my sweetie, alot but thats not going to get me newhere im not happy right now but im not in a bad mood i think i may need to smoke another cancer stick i smoked to many this weekend but why not just a few more still in N.H. leaveing soon i think i kidnapped linty and now hes bored out of his mind i ( Read more... )

just to say you never commented or returned comments i gave you no you dont have to comment everytime i dont care im just saying back in N.H. again this weekend its good to get away ill be gone with shawn and jack next weekend today is laura-lou's birthday so happy 19th ^.^ as far as other things go they never get any easier and i dont care wat ( Read more... )

over all the day the day didnt start off that great but it got better as the day went on sweetie was at the bus stop makes me happy but i was still kinda eh but i was better my second period amanda talked to me and and my buddy jas too and then i talked to sam i spent lunch with mike and shawn and mr lane wasnt there today so those are the ( Read more... )

not much to say about today i took a long nap and and have stayed flared all day played some hacky sack and played with the dogs i've had an alright time so far im glad to be with y friends and i wish my sweetie, i wish i could talk to you maybe later im the mean time im going to finsh watching one of my favorite movies and thenim going to try ( Read more... )

im so in love with you it hurts and now its all screwed up i want you to myself and no one else so if you have someone else in mind you need to tell me cuz ill have a hard enough time handling it i love you and i hate myself for it becuz its hurts so much i was so happy today i wrote you a note and then i found out you werent there and my day ( Read more... )

i keep switching from ad good mood to a bad mood today and its beginning to tick me off. i wish i wasnt right about linty i had a feeling that thats was what hes been up two for the last couple of weeks i was kinda made at him but then i felt bad for ditching him but i got to see alan he called me earlier and wanted to hang out so i hung out ( Read more... )

i have to change my e-mail address cuz i spelled it wrong this morning cuz i was half asleep. fuck im a smart kido well ill live ,besides it gives me sometihng to do later