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8 months to COVID
Its been a while LJ. I haven't put anything into you since the new year? I'm doing well as can be. I'm stuck at home like everyone else in the world right now, waiting COVID out until it disappears or we find a cure/vaccine. I don't know what's happening in the world right now. People don't have jobs, I don't have one too. And I'm scared to get one ( Read more... ) -
queen's holiday
now, im actually writing and its a public holiday. i havent been on here in a while and i could say there hasn't really been any changes. for the past months i have been rolling around in a negative spiral. i was getting up with no purpose and just trying my everyday doing things that i thought might chagne something in my life. but nothing has ( Read more... ) -
unemotionally emotional
the date is as its says above. it has been 8 months since ive moved to australia. and ive had 1 job and got fired from that one job. i wasn't exactly happy when i got it; i was just okay since i had the means to be able to get by and survive this place. but it was short lived since i only got 1 month off of it. it was enought to buy a few more ( Read more... ) -
Adjusting into the 'new' life.
It's exactly a week since I've moved out of my home and my country and into a foreign land and foreign people. I have been adjusting weirdly. Firstly, I still think this is a vacation, and I'm not entirely living here. I've been sleeping at a long time friends' place with her family; and I feel a bit out of place. Probably because it isn't my ( Read more... ) -
Hold Tight. Pray Hard. And Wait.
I don't know what to do. I'm passing time the way that I know how. Writing my novels, fixing my future company, studying for my future career, working out...but I don't wanna feel this hurt. This pain of waiting, of always waiting for something, not being able to make the most out of something. Being just okay. Standing on the side lines. I don't ( Read more... ) -
The Heart is Heavy
Weird enough i think the title says everything. My heart is heavy. Not that I've done anything wrong. I just had a lot going in my plate and the leaves me into feeling down...i guess. not down though, burdened is more likely a better word to use. burdened with what really? of life? of everything that is supposed to happen and may not happen to me? ( Read more... ) -
standstill
The dread. really. where I feared myself 3 years ago being. it was being adrift again. after all this time, i come back here. not that im in that same state...or actually i think i am. i am wiser now, armed with knowledge and experience from since then. but i sometimes think i still feel that same person not knowing where im heading. and its sad ( Read more... ) -
career career career
so as of this writing, i am currently unemployed. well, not that unemployed but close enough. I've been fired from my job because theyre transferring me into another company. but i didnt take the transfer because it was a demotion. from a mangerial position to specialist. i wouldn't have that. it was stupid and it isn't me ( Read more... ) -
What Can I say
It's been a days now that i found out that I'm not going to be in ABSCBN anymore. Although i knew that the day would soon come, but I never thought i'd be this unprepared about it. I saw it coming but I didnt really did anything to prepare for it. Sure, I was looking for work, but... I thought of impressing the 'lords' for giving me an actual job. ( Read more... ) -
Tough Days
I'm having tough days at the office. First off, my career, my actual job. I'm not excited by it anymore. I think I've fallen into a pit of stagnancy. It reeks through the air that I'm breathing. I hate to be stagnant. I hate to be where I am without improving. I never liked myself when I am just and content with what I am now. I have to be always ( Read more... )