took too much the other weekend, it was easter and my wife's birthday. really lost it. Thought I had died, or was always dead and didn't realize until I was in that exact moment. It was selfish to do that, take too much, when it was my wife's day and all. But I made it through, and am reborn ( Read more... )

so done, won't phone it in but soooooo done. i miss this shit, livejournaling

thanks to my complete mania (and coincidently in time with finding this old journal) I've realized that i've been unhappily living a life I never planned on. That a good ten years of my life have been in the halfhearted pursuit of credibility I shouldn't have ever wanted in the first place ( Read more... )

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tough day yesterday: crumby job, crumby co-workers, lost a contest, napped all night, got no work done, received little respect, deserved little respect, continued to watch my life pass before my eyes, summoned no ambition, consumed media, consumed disgusting food, continued to kill myself slowly, nearly cried because I thought about my unavoidable ( Read more... )

last night i dreamed that emma stone had invited me to come to her incredibly fancy home to see her new baby, but we would have to be very quiet and careful. The countess, who was the actual owner of the fancy home, and who held power over emma, could never know we were there, as it would displease them ( Read more... )

found this, and to tell the truth it's ten years later and I am still underachieved and sad.

am i the only one who feels like they simply live to pay bills, and be disappointed again and again? my girlfriend, i think, feels slighted that i'm not happy with existence in general, but maybe that's a "what has it done for me lately" type of deal.

dear katie ( Read more... )

things i've found while cleaning out my bedroom in my mother's house ( Read more... )