tomorrow i start training at chilis
i'm shy and clumsy
this could've been a huge mistake
joey started at applebees and he said it sucks

it's do or die time
i need money
i need to move out in july/august

the band is being really fucking shady.. so i tried to find an alternate plan.. and "pretty girls make graves" publicist is talking to the band..i may be going to RI this weekend.. everyong cross your fingers.. this would be perfect

mike came into our editing class today, and i smiled, and he said he was gonna withdraw, his health problems are worse than he had thought, and i got so sad.. he was talking to my teacher and i kept saying that i was gonna run up to him and give him a hug.. like WAIT.. and then do it.. and then he walked out and i didn't.. but then i did.. i ran ( Read more... )

it's ok to not like mushrooms
really!
stop trying to make yourself like them
it's just not in the cards ya know

and there is no sleep when there is nick...

and then work...

and then stories....

i just want to sleep

i read a couple of message boards one about a medication that causes bad sleep walking and doing crazy things while you're asleep and not remember them in the morning.. also losing lots of short term and long term memory.. feeling very disconnected.. which lead me into thinking about night terrors and adult sleep disorder and maybe they're ( Read more... )

im about 2 seconds away from going crazy and moving back to boston...
there's nothing here for me

i smoked and ate way too much today.. i feel like a fat shit.. that has lung cancer.. i also never want to talk about the movie i made.. even though im going to have to on wed.. im in such a horrible mood, and it won't export to tape..

i need a break.. im not used to this, my chest hurts.. gnight

so yesterday after work joey and I went to maria's little shindig.. but first we walked out of work, and there is a trail again leading to my car with a big puddle underneith.. im like jeez, i just got this shit looked at.. so im already a little nervous.. get to maria's.. eat a shitload.. it was a little awkward.. her friends are way younger than ( Read more... )

i can't remember what i did last weekend..oh yea.. i went out and was a party animal on saturday night.. first we went to paulies in pleasantville.. got some awesome drink that got me buzzed.. then we went to dicey rileys i think in yonkers and stayed there till like 4 am.. i didn't get home until 6.. joey and vlora dirty danced.. vlora got wayy ( Read more... )