today i've began to intentionally destroy my mom and i's relationship. lately she's a complete and utter bitch; the epitome of selfish and ignorant, and she's been working my nerve a great deal. in the home, i'm anti-social from now on, this will allow me to stay here, because i don't want to move out. i'm hoping to put up with this shit only until ( Read more... )

my dad's a huge loser. come to find out, the stipulation to get the cash was "i'd being moving in with him". pisses me the fuck off. now i realize that the key is patience, yeah, i think i'll work on that one most definately. ugh, now i have to sell my laptop again.

last night was a slow one, and also a thinking experience. my brother called my cell phone while i was out, talking about how he and our dad have been talking, and how they think it's best that i return to portland. okay, whatever, end conversation ( Read more... )

i feel ill this morning. went to bed at around 1am feeling crappy. woke up around 3:30ish am and spilled my guts. actually, i woke up several times to vomit. no clue of what the fuck i was throwing up, because as much as i did, i'm pretty sure there was nothing else in my system, so ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! i must've literally spilled my guts ( Read more... )

but you know nothing ever works out the way i plan on it to. no more writing out agendas, because they only set me up for heart break. Ashley fucking hooked up with her boyfriend again, and i feel like someone's puppet for a change, not the puppet master. i'm not angry however, just very fucking sad. you know, i don't even want a fucking ( Read more... )

uh oh. bad news already; the girl i like was all ragging on how i reaked of cigarettes. that's not good, we haven't even started dating yet, and she's already found something to hold against me, so i better quit like, now. also, i didn't say anything because i don't want my friends all worried over me and such, but yesterday Skot was all like "well ( Read more... )

i hate how when i'm concentrating on something, or doing something constructive with my time, idiots seem to become interested and annoy the hell out of me. that's not directed toward Scott or any other kid i actually like, but to these fucking losers that that flock around me. well, going back to myself. no more mr nice kid. everyone's getting ( Read more... )

something has been floating through my head for several months, ever since i received the invitation. the original plan was to move to PA with RC for school over the summer, or fall. we'd get a house, because he knows a guy that rents out for cheap to students. that's been on the agenda since august, or maybe even july, not sure exactly, but the ( Read more... )

okay i did it, i put in my two weeks notice for my current job. now hopefully i'll get lucky and land a way better paying job within this two weeks. other wise, i think i can kiss the eclipse/talon good bye, atleast for a while ( Read more... )

okay, here's what i've decided. i'm going to find a full time job to work after school hours. i'll be working from 3pm-11pm, or 4pm-12 midnight. i'll be making like 10 bucks an hour, and working 40 hours weekly, plus have weekends off, so i should be calculating maybe 350 bucks weekly, or 700 bucks bi weekly... that's with the tax deductions. sure ( Read more... )