i just re-read my journal entries from about 2 years ago... i don't think i realized i took that many hallucinogens? or was i really just that much more centered? probably a little of both.  the past year definitely made me a kinda brittle. ugh. oh well, i re-found my livejournal. maybe i'll write in it.

so i feel so sad and off lately, and i can't quite figure out why... i may be lonely, but it's kinda a silly thing to be, because i'm almost constantly surrounded by folks, so...i just feel antsy and expectant, but for what? i'm pretty damned sure that anything spectacular/life shifting that was going to happen has already whacked me in the head ( Read more... )

be there is a flame in my stomach and butterflies in my rest of bits ( Read more... )

so here's a quick update ( Read more... )

in my dreams there are wild kittens stalking the chaos butterflies across the ruins of civil-lization and i am resplendent in a cloak of obscurity in my dreams i am deep in my painted desert and the sky is as open as my mind and i'm flowing like the lava that made the rocks that made the sand and when i wake the coyote magic will be winking at me ( Read more... )

so i'm here at my mother's and i've been alternately buzzing like a bumble-ly bee and sunk down so fucking low that ain't no one gonna bring me back up all day...stupid stupid chemicals..i'm surrounded by many obese shedding cats, attempting to get back money that i lent two months ago and kicking myself, once again, for always feeling like i have ( Read more... )

well this seems nice enough ( Read more... )

so still at heather's..rereading what i wrote last night...um. but not really. went through my birthchart today..Virgo(!) rising, Sun = Aries, Moon = Taurus...a little odd for there to be that much earth, but i guess it kinda makes sense in some way..trying to figure out what the hell was wrong with us when we were kids...still a lot of ruminating ( Read more... )

and we'll drink from ( Read more... )

flesh parting slight Resistance and then the ( Read more... )