said yes to a date i'm not looking forward to. done this scenario before. wheres the innovation. guess i couldnt get enough of the "why'd i do this to myself" bit. i love feeling trapped ( Read more... )

sipping the wake-up juice. went to watch dirty pretty things last night and i still have some of the vulgar images flashing through my head. the poster completely misinformd the audience. its not a cute fun movie. its a brutally honest film about the ppl seeking refuge from asylum. yes, this means the protaganist falls victim to a double-wammy ( Read more... )

i forgot to drink coffee today. darn!

...i'm still in the office this friday evening when everyone else has left. got my accuradio on and shoes off. makes me feel uneasy walking around here barefooted. mel and charm are probably within a one-block radius shopping, popping in the plastic. perfect occasion for me to follow suit cuz its PAYDAY but i gotta pay rent from now on. ( Read more... )

ive made it a habit to set 2 alarms for the dreaded morning wake after repeatedly mixing AM with PM times, and consequentally getting into work very late. now i use my cellphone and a travel alarm clock i got at the only grocery store in waikiki. somehow i managed to (now hold back the applause) sleep through both alarms today. i recall faint ( Read more... )

the yacht dinner was uneventful. martin asked if i was bored cuz i looked it. i give him the gentle "no, i'm just tired" reply. it was a microsoft party attended by about 15 couples. all man-woman pairs, most of whom are engaged. the 2 types of introductory phrases were ( Read more... )

bangs not behaving
in my face
front of my eyeballs to be exact
squinting
going for that sexy cross-eyed look

tonight: fancy dinner on a yacht
dress-code: business caj.
i've opted for my Original Joes waitress uniform
goes great with the crossed eyes
planning on a nice lil buzz at the open bar!

VOTE NO on PROP 54!
(details forthcoming)

checked out dance comps 3 weeks in a row. already have my favorites though i love them all really. wish they made trading cards of these people. theyre so damn cute. probably not the look theyre goin for tho. as a groupie, i'm obligated to look them up on friendster or any other internet leads i get from flyers or host-mc's ( Read more... )

i hate him i hate him i hate him he grips he clings, wont let the fuck go and rambling rambling rambles without a single pause he mutes my attempts to seize control of the talk by projecting his voice loUDERR when i speak loudERRR LOUDERRR he is a middle-aged woman's fingernail, painted blood red, drilling 1/2 centimeter deep down the bed of flesh ( Read more... )

ive decided to become a coffee-drinker. it makes me feel great. once the caffeine hits the stomach, things seem so clear to me. i see the resolution to all the issues in my life. i'm at peace. some thoughts from coffee-highs ( Read more... )