havent done this in a while. what time is it anyway ( Read more... )

a week ago last night it happened for the first time since the end. last night it happened again, and the night before that as well. approaching the boundaries...step back...

havent been sick like this in nearly a year. the left side of me has it worse. eyeball puffy, nose hole completely plugged. went to sleep at 7p last night with the aide of theraflu...it lulled me comfy ( Read more... )

my eyeballs feel dried out. perhaps its my new eyeliner....regardless, i'm glad it really does last up to 16-hours without smudging.

i just had a nose bleed. it took a while to clump. the clump slid half-way down my throat when i caught it with my throat muscles, and led it to exit through my mouth.

pretty damn nasty. now i keep spitting out blood...remnants of the clump.

hapa
smart, like really
skinny-toned
baseball
geetar
will/focus
social
drinker
athletic
high reading total
well-dressed
musician
raven-hair
skilled
taLL

i really dont know how the fuck to answer that question. do i give a "ok" so that he'll feel better about his day? if i do, i'd vomit. or does he want the truth "shitty" which will just turn the whole call sour and make him never call again. why even ask the question when there's no fair answer ( Read more... )

it pulls me the other way
think negative negative
a whisper crackles into a murmur
a kick a jolt a quick release
i'm done
i wait
for the next convulsion

night full of sweat and bad dreams. trapped, stuck, persistant. stick and cold, maybe clammy. now i'm waiting for sleep to comepletely overtake me. does in increments of 30 seconds. then i wake up and pop my eyes back into placement in fron ther man.

they're talking 'bout motorized Big Wheels as a kid. 'bout zooming down the street ( Read more... )