I wake up to Edon and Mom and Barak... my mother sobbing like I've never seen her before ( Read more... )

Back in the beginning of this whole thing, i told Doron that I had no problem doing whatever it is that we're doing, so long as the moment that one of us start seeing somebody, we stop seeing eachother. So, now he's been kind enough to notify me that he's seeing some 18 year old girl for about a week. The thought of him sleeping with another girl ( Read more... )

Okay... so with 2009 biting at our heels, I would like to review my year in the hopes that some retrospect may provide a piece of the puzzle that I've been missing.

January - Nearly failed my first semester finals, got fired from Coffee-To-Go, stopped talking to my roommate.

February - Don't really remember too much, I think this was the start of ( Read more... )

Okay... so I'm aware of the fact that in pictures I usually look better than I do in person... mainly because I'm with makeup on or because in the summer I'm tan and my skin is clear etc... but in the past 2 days, 1 guy said to me that I'm "amazingly beautiful", 1 guy said that I'm "very attractive" and a woman that knew me from childhood said that ( Read more... )

I realize that I'm probably being a little dramatic here and I may possibly be a little more emotional than usual due to the fact that I'm on my period, but ( Read more... )

The question that I'm constantly fighting over in my head is this super mind-f**k... Shall I ( Read more... )

Well, things have actually been pretty good between Doron and I, if you exclude the fact that we're not actually together. Now, that's not to say that we're not sleeping together, but we're not 'together'. He is free of my leash. We are יזיזים except for one small fact... I still love him. I'm not saying that I'd like things any other way - I mean ( Read more... )

So, I thought that this was more than relevant... I'm not sure how true it is, but it feels true at the moment.

"Amoris vulnus idem sanat, qui facit. Translation: The wounds of love can only be healed by the one who made them". Syrus Publilius

Doron and I are going to try the friends with benefits route - friends to the general public and benefits ( Read more... )

Okay... so I think it's official, I went crazy today. I didn't want to call and bug somebody, so not only did I start talking to myself, I was giving myself advice. People say that they give really good advice, but that they never listen to their own advice, so today, I listened to my own advice. I tried to tell myself what I would tell a friend in ( Read more... )

So, last night as I was waiting for True Blood to load, I was talking to Edon. He was talking to me about Noi and I started talking to him about Doron. He wanted to know exactly what was happening with us, because he said that it looked like things were different this weekend. He is so fucking smart and observant - sometimes I'm just shocked at how ( Read more... )