Im such an idiot, to think i could be a good father or decent husband for either of them

....an update we still live in the one bedroom appt. but are looking at a two bedroom house tomorrow, we had our baby a beautiful baby boy named loki, 9 pounds 1 ounce at birth on october the 15th, 2006 at 1:45p.m. renee was in labor for almost a whole day ( Read more... )

Ever feel like you just aren't who you want to be?....maybe Im just worried about being a dad....I don't know I wasn't expecting it so fast....I need a job so bad....I feel like shit that I don't have a job but its hard....I am so limited when I can look and even more so now because rema is hurt....I always thought I would be somewhere or doing ( Read more... )

Ok guess what.....

keep guessing go on guess real hard and think outside the box

IMA BE A DADDY RENEE IS PREGNATE WE ARE GONNA HAVE A BABY YAY IM GONNA BE A DADDY

whoops wrong button lol. i miss renee so much. i miss my hunny bunny. but i have to confess something there has been this person that has been haunting my dreams. probaly just missing renee so much and im afraid shes not gonna come back even though i know she will be back in three days. i don't know though this person has just been in my dreams ( Read more... )

I miss my Renee more then anything.

I have been feeling bad all day....i am not going to talk about it because renee has enough to deal with....i won't say it to you hunny please don't worry though....god i don't know....renee has made a decision on cam and i don't know i hate the guy i really do but i hate seeing her this hurt even more....thats all for now....i let a lady leave ( Read more... )

I think I am done....I think im done with everything....its not that anyone is doing anything its just i don't think i can do it anymore....im sorry for everyone....but i don't think i can do it anymore....i think anything would be better right now....i need help but i can't turn to anyone....renee is upseting me at every turn....so is virtualy ( Read more... )

I am so glad that the both of you love me....i let people in here because i trust people....i post a lot of stuff in here....and i expect everyone to keep it confident....that is allowed to see it....if not then i will remove everyone know matter who done it....i post a lot in here....all of my thoughts....all of my feelings....like my feelings ( Read more... )

Im supposed to update so I will probaly work on it the next few hours....i have pissed a lot of people off but ohh well....the ones that matter or are truely my or renees friends seem to understand....renee has a new girlfriend....she is really nice and awsome....i like her a lot too....work has been going ok....i don't make much yet but im ( Read more... )

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