Have somee work nw, just a few weeks, but it's better than a kick in the teeth. Have been starting to feel more like myself a bit - though I still can't face thinking about certain things. Hurts too much ( Read more... )

So far I have lost my job, my house, my friends, the woman I love, my unborn children. Is here anything else to lose ( Read more... )

Oh well, lost my job at the studios. gutted. No idea what I'm going to do with my life.

what is the point?

I feel so weird. I think I'm ill. I don't know. I miss Jules, my life is a mess and the flat's even worse. Joys

Is to go home. Collapse on the sofa. Veg in front of a DVD/TV program and be loving and loved with Jules.

But I'm stuck in work. I'm so knackered.

Pah. Drinking and listening to music is all fine and good. But I'm sure it's better if people are with you when you do it! LOL

Been drinking since midday. hehehee. Got another, um, 12 hours to go me thinks. LOL

"I think of all the friends I've know,
but when I dial the telephone,
Nobody's home.."

What a song. Describes my life almost perfectly right now..

Every week the sameargument. Well, not quite, but we alwaysargue. Every weekend.

AND all my friends are ignoring me, well, i say friends, i dont think i actually have any anymore.

My world has virtually collapsed.

I'm feeling fragile.

Please dont hurt me.

I've worked out what I want from life.

A job I enjoy and pays enough to live as I like
To have a home that is a haven from the world and I can curl up with the one I love and be happy and RELAXED.