Personal: pain

[hanade]

Of all people, u appreciate me the less.. So y do i stick with u?
Of all people.. U rejected me the most.. So y do i stick with u?
Y d u do this to me? Is it bcuz i pushed myself to u so many times that you re already sick of me?? What do u want me to do? Just sit back n let it be? U know what.. I have feelings too.. N painful is one of it..

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[tifa]

Girrrrl, my mantra is to never do anything for others unless you KNOW they will reciprocate. If they won't, I do the best thing for myself: leave. You can't love them into changing but you can LEAVE THEM into transforming.

[hanade]

Hi there munky, how s life goin..i know it s abit lateforme to reply this, but now i feel it again..
Leave..i would love to.. But it s so hard that i think icould never be able to do so.. I think it s cuz that person is already deep within me .. Been keepin the image inside of me for a long time n cant imagine living without..

[tifa]

Hey, sorry! I'm pretty busy but I can make time between hours.

That's very dramatic! I don't know. If you're happy with them the way you are, then do whatever makes you happy. But if you're finding yourself unhappy, you have to do the hard thing and leave. It's hard but it's necessary to your health.

[hanade]

Darou ne.. Since i ve been diagnose with high blood pressure last time.. I guess u make a very good point there..
M trying my best to tone down my feelings so it wont hurt as much if i were to get frustrated again..
Since the pain is a personal pain.. I guess it wont affect the other party as much as it kills me inside.. Thus, yes, just like u said, it s wiser to start thinkin bout my health now.. Especially my heart.. I shud start reducing the pressure i gave it ..
Anyway.. U too, take care of ur health ey, red ur entries too.. Seems like a lot of things are squeeezing ur peace..let s take care of our health ne

[garconuqej]

Great writing! I want you to follow up to this topic!?!

[hanade]

hi there garconuqe, follow up is..now we re liven together :)