I feel stuck in the middle. I want something more than what I'm getting, someone to talk to, somewhere to be. I want to go backward and I can't. I'm supposed to go forward and I don't know how.

It's not the same. I can't go back. I've been trying for months and months to be who i was with the people I love the most. I want it all back but when I ( Read more... )

Lately my family has been making me go to church every Sunday and bible study every Thursday. They've gone on a Bible kick over the last month, and at first I was kind of glad because I haven't gone to church in a really long time. But the more I go the more I've realized that I don't really believe in anything and I don't know how to get it back. ( Read more... )

It's Just Not Fair.

I need to vent....

I'm so frustrated right now. I just feel like I am in the same situation over and over again. and I'm tired of it.

I like this guy. and I think he might like me. But he has a girlfriend, and so I can't do anything. And this isn't a new situation. It seems like everytime I like someone, someone else has gotten ( Read more... )

So "Pizza Girl: The Sequel" begins production tomorrow, and yes, I'm making a comeback in the lead role. I'm delivering instead of waitressing this time, so it might not be quite as.....exciting....as last time. Plus, I get to drive! Yay me.

My birthday party was good. My birthday was okay. There were a few things that bugged me, but that's okay. ( Read more... )

Out of Control

My life is gnawing at me, my heart is aching and I don't know why. I'm missing something. I know it. I have that feeling where you know something is wrong but you aren't sure what, and it's propelling you to change it but you don't know how. What's to change? I don't know what's wrong with me, but this feeling is biting my heels, ( Read more... )

Are you where you thought you would be at this point? Are you standing on the path you thought you would take? Does life still mean the same thing?

I always thought I'd be a writer. Ever since I was little, that was what I wanted to do--write down the adventures of people who only existed in my mind. Now, I don't know. I'm not sure where I'm going ( Read more... )

So.....somebody hit the back of my car while I was out of town. I'd left it parked in the parking lot where my mom works (Because, from where it was parked, I didn't think that anyone  could hit the damn thing. I was wrong.) while I went to Safford to take care of school stuff with Dustin. We were planning on getting back around 8 or 9, but we didn ( Read more... )

 my laptop is incapacitated for the next....until I get it fixed. Which is sad because I'm now cutoff from the rest of the world 90% of the time...and I'm over my cell phone minutes by, well....alot...let's just say my mom isn't happy about that....
I've got like five contemplation blogs I want to write and no time in which to do so, but eventually ( Read more... )

Have you ever hated where you were currently employed? Does the thought of going to work each day fill you with dread? Do you count off the hours until your shift ends, and rejoice should you happen to get off early?

I do.

It's really rather horrible of me, but I can't wait to get the hell out of there. I mean, i have a couple friends (repeat: ( Read more... )

And they have good reason to. I've changed my mind so many times it's not even funny.

No really, it's not funny. it's annoying. And hurtful, to everyone involved.

BUT, I'm pretty damn sure I know what I'm doing now. I've thought about it long and hard, tripped up quite a few times along the way, and done some pretty stupid things. But I know what ( Read more... )