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xo meredith

On my bed, late night/early morning. I am running my fingers across his face
Him: I love how you touch me. Like you can't believe I'm here
Me: I'd say that's a pretty good guess.
Him: I'll be here until you get bored with me.
Me: I think you're safe.

I just spent a fucking half hour in front of the toilet, puking up my dinner. Sweaty, pale, and in my underwear, heaving and gagging myself to get the rest of it out of my stomach. It started with these terrible cramps that feel like they're in my lungs, but clearly it's a stomach thing. I spat up something on my own at first, and I felt a little ( Read more... )

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I IMed John again.

why why why why why why why why why why why why do I do this?

I IMed John. I don't know why I felt the need to check up on him, but I left a half-hearted "hope you're doing well. Lots of prayers for you and yours" bullshit message. I don't understand myself. The need to pull at old wounds? Scars scars scars

I got into my safety schoolChance of snow tomorrow: 100% -- 3 to 6 inches accumulation. It's about ( Read more... )

_ I feel like I'm waiting for something to happen. I'm not sure what it is, but I get this distinct feeling that I'm holding out for an event. Something to change my life around. My constant state is one of saying, day after day, "just make it through today" and things will be okay soon. But there's nothing to look forward to. There's no end in ( Read more... )

So Matt came to see me during lunch. I was sitting with Tavis, Becca, Brin, Casey, Emily, and Melissa. And he said a few words, and then left. You should have seen the reactions.

Tavis : GOD HE IS SO HOT
Me: I KNOW.
Casey: That's your boyfriend?
Emily: DAMN

Life is good. Damn good.

objoriented: how're you and veiny these days?
GeekGirl42: Kissing. Laughing. Kissing while laughing. Laughing while kissing. Holding hands. Staring into eyes

GeekGirl42: OH! That reminds me!
GeekGirl42: Friday, April 12, DMB is playing in Providence. Do you want to go with me???
sequinedgypsy:aisuhdf;aksndfk;smfdn ;asjd
sequinedgypsy:HELL YES
sequinedgypsy:are they REALLY?!
GeekGirl42: I can get us tickets early.
GeekGirl42: Yeah
sequinedgypsy:I had no idea. I'm so out of the loop
sequinedgypsy:HOLY ( Read more... )