The truth can't be hidden forever. There always comes a time when you just can't fool anyone, including yourself, anymore. Not for anything. Not for the sake of doing it. Not even to save your own meager life. None the less, it doesn't matter much anymore. Nothing does. Not even the fact that they were all right. Not even the faint will to ( Read more... )

This has become all to familar. These insidious feelings all too common latly. These crimson tears have stained my hands and im left with nothing but theses scars i bear. The painful realizations are catching up to me as i look upon myself and see whats happening. I knew a long time ago that nothing would ever be the same, but now i see its ( Read more... )

I hate just sitting here every night. Its so god damn boring. Its like a daily routine, come home, get yelled at then sit here and do absoluly nothing for a few hours. Ugh. Hmm...So Today i went to Petsmart with kara to return the cricket rock thing and get a stick for Ohansi. Then we went to the A&P and walked around for a bit i dun remember ( Read more... )

Oh man the show was amazing. Kevin and Lindsay went with Kara and me. Im glad they went cuz i dont think we would have been able to find it. They're so nice, i love them this is the second time they took us to a show. Yea so I was definatly impressed with Anterabe(i think thats how u spell it) and Eighteen Visions. They were really amazing. ( Read more... )

Hmm last night was pretty fun. After work i went to Kara's far awhile and then we went to the movies with Roxy, Kate and Noelle. Yea we saw "the day after tomorrow"...it was pretty good, but i was kind of dissapointed in the ending. Oh well it was still a pretty fun night. I wish we all could have hung out for a while afterwards, i felt bad ( Read more... )

Lines of seperation between life and death have all blurred into a faint vacancy. Everything rushes by as vision is narrowed into a meager pinpoint. Only the sound of an unconcerning world breaks through these walls of dejection, only to be broken by you. But once again, im not graced by your touch, so here i remain. Trapped. Empty and alone.

Please tell me i'll be alright. Please say this wont last. Because when i look into your eyes i see myself, and it kills me to know your in the same place i am. It hurts so bad to know the truth and to see whats happening. Please dont give up on me...

On the cliff of distinction, of right and wrong. To drain myself of all this. To say I cant go on. A lie, a fake, a loser. Its not me, Its not me. Not a joke or an alibi. Cant you see? So far from falling, too close to breathe. It will destroy me someday. But for now its all I need.

Theres no one left to lose. Nothing left to ruin. No one is what they seem. And nothing will ever be the same agian. Whats the point of making someone think otherwise? Whats the point of chasing after a friend that broke the little trust you gave them when you know they would just as quick go behind your back and carry on in spite? Whats the ( Read more... )

I want to believe what they say...I want it to all go away. Its been like this for way too long. Too long to change. And too long for faith. So I let the anguish seep throughout this relinquished psyche. Lost all motive. Lost all promise of a better tomorrow. Hope only remains in your embrace. But with you so far away, im giving up. Im ( Read more... )