Oh man some people seriously have no fucking lives. Its so sad how a certain couple people have to go and be so immature as to anonymously insult me on a live journal comment. Im really sick of this bullshit. I didnt even say anything to anyone. But im almost positive i know who it is. I just would have thought that he would have gotten a life ( Read more... )

I think im going to start posting friends only from now on. Just comment if you want me to add you I guess.

Well, yesturday was my birthday. And despite everything going wrong and me in a really bad mood from my family being assholes and yelling at me the whole day, Kara really made me feel better. Every time i got mad or upset she made me happy agian. I love her so much. But i was still really fucking mad at my grandmother for screaming at me as ( Read more... )

Hmmm...well im sitting here in the Park Ridge library looking for colleges in the city and i figured while im online i might as well update my journal since i havent in like probably more than a month. Yeah so here i am. Away again, this really sucks because not that kenilworth is a big orgy of happiness and fun or anything like that but being ( Read more... )

Back...but not to stay. Im leaving in a few hours again and ill be back to stay starting Sunday night (not that it matters cuz im sure no one could care less). But yeah. Ill update asap, which will be probably sunday night (again not that it matters), but yeah.

Once again, nothing goes like the way i planned it to. i know this is hard and i know its easy to give up but i always remember what i would be giving up on and its always enough to make me see that its not what i want to do. I hope you feel the same way. Im sorry everything always turns out like this. But i promise soon youll be in my arms ( Read more... )

Well i just got back from my uncles house. Grr, it was horrible. A whole week spent sitting in a house all day with my brother. He wasnt so bad. It really sucked being away from Kara and my other friends i talk to online sometimes. Yea so it really sucked a lot. And what makes it even worse...they (my aunt and uncle) 'didnt get around to ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wish I could start all over. Go back to the beginning and change everything around so that its all perfect. I would hold everything together before it all has a chance to fall apart. I would make everything the way it is supposed to be. But I cant, and I'll never have that chance. But I do want to say this; I dont give a shit what ( Read more... )

Descreet, deceit pouring from my lungs. Into your ears, and I cant do it anymore. Lifeless black days, hidden behind this fascade. A part of me wants to show you the pain, because I know your the only one who could possibly understand. But I could never bring this upon you. So I hide these scars, I'm behind these bars that I built, and I cant ( Read more... )

Ugh i give up. Im really sorry i didnt want to talk about it. Whatever, it doesnt matter anyway. Its not like anythings about to change back to how it was anytime soon anyway. Maybe they're right. Maybe i have changed for the worse, and i am a bad 'friend'. I never meant to make anyone upset and i never wanted to lose it all, but i guess shit ( Read more... )