Well its 8:54 in the morning and im very upset that i woke up this early. Its too late to go back to sleep and too early to call anyone or go outside...so that leaves me with absolutly nothing to do. Maybe ill go play guitar or something till like 10:30 or 11:00 when i call Kara and hang out with her. Tonight im going to hang out with Nick and ( Read more... )

Whats this world coming to?...i have conformed to the quiz taking youth of america...shoot me ( Read more... )

I wish i could explain to you the way i feel when i see you smile. I wish i could make you feel the way i do when im holding you. I wish you knew the way your eyes make everything stop. I wish you didnt ever feel the way i do when your not here with me.

Pushing myself farther and farther away from my few friends, eventually everyone gives up. And Im not able to make myself perfect for the one who hasnt given up yet. I dont know why i do this to myself. They all say its my fault...because im not trying. How long should i try before i realize its useless, or should i continue to drone on in an ( Read more... )

I really dont understand anything. I get so confused about what im doing and how im doing it. But im sure if you say i am, then i must be. Im not trying to and i truly dont see how i do. I wish i could make you smile all the time and make it so you didnt have to think about anything. I wish i could put everything back together and have it all ( Read more... )

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I wish i could just run away. Im so tired of this. People need to leave me alone if they are going to be like they are. Oh..and like i said...stop commenting if your going to act like you two years old and not leave a fucking name...jesus christ...i mean seriously, i love how god damn mature you people are.

...I wish i could say something and everything could change for the better. I wish i had control of certain things. I feel like im just sitting here letting everything slip away...

Choking down the truth that these scars bear. Keeping the secrets dispite willing and open ears. Turning away for a reason unknown. Feeling empty and numb, loved but alone. Not sure what to do, how to feel or where to go, but knowing a lot of it has to change. Also knowing it wont. Everything spins as this paradoxical life crumbles. Loved ( Read more... )

It's strange to realize that we're all living in a life where the very future can be determined by one simple detail or one subconscious decision, any seemingly unimportant detail overlooked or changed can cause everything to change. Things can change so quickly. And they do. So quickly that before we can get used to one life, we are forced to ( Read more... )