since forever i've been the girl with the plan. i worked hard enough during hs so i could go far away to college. i knew i wanted to start life over on my own. to make my own mistakes and only be able to look to myself to pick up the pieces. to succeed and not know in my head "i couldn't have done this without.." i was an apprentice at a ( Read more... )

i've fallen in love with big cities. driving on ninety-four towards skyscrapers and lights that never turn off makes my heart beat faster. dancing isn't an option, it's a must as songs about car accidents pour through the speakers. we couldn't tell you the name of the street we are on, but don't confuse that with lack of excitement. art is ( Read more... )

welcome to college.
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I fell in love. So deep it makes me nauseas. Movie love. The boy was perfect, we were perfect. Our third best day was going to be better than your first. We were the lyrics to your favorite song. We were that feeling you got right before sleep. We were the butterflies in your stomach. We were that skipped heartbeat. We were the artists you’d grow ( Read more... )

once i felt infinite. maybe it was deep into the am, but maybe that doesn't mean anything to two kids who are in love. our hands found each other, and we walked in the middle of the street. sidewalks are nothing to brag about when you can own the world. we shared all those stories that no one else could ever understand and smiled that the night ( Read more... )

50plus hours ago you sent me a message saying you loved me. we talked and you told me you missed me. you'd woken from a dream, never feeling so sad. you thought you lost me. and now at 2twenty am i wonder were you lying. was i lying when i said that could never happen. maybe we both were. maybe this is how it's going to be. too stubborn to hold on ( Read more... )

the fashion magazine is published. "this summer is all about faking it." broken hearts and thoughtless promises are in. i heard they wanted you and me to pose for the centerfold. i'm an alluring veneer, i would have been the perfect runway model. and you, you know how to smile for the camera. we're so fucking great at pretending to be happy; as ( Read more... )

one hundred and one days ago i fell in love.
ten days ago i stopped breathing.

"i meant everything i ever said to you."

a week ago from today the best summer of my life, turned into a total disappointment. i've spent the last seven days crying over a boy, and it sucks. and as much as i don't want to lose this boy entirely, i don't want to be just friends, and i'm finding it really hard to fake. i don't think i'm going to be better for another six weeks, so, hello ( Read more... )

There are limes hidden in the ritz cracker box as evidence of the best slumber party ever. Actually, Adam and I didn't do anything too special, we just sat around watching tv, played some video games, bothered Stephen, Blake, and Slave (Kevin), ate food, had a couple pillow fights, and just talked, but yet it really felt like something I've needed ( Read more... )