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Finally over the worst of this horrible cold. It took three days of sleeping. Due to Professor Black's injury (which he has now, thankfully, recovered from), the classes have all been mixed up and extra classes were cancelled, so hopefully I haven’t missed too much work.
Thursday was the worst. I think I was actually delusional at one point - I simply couldn't think straight, it hurt even to try. I think I must have fainted coming back from the bathroom because I woke up some time later on the floor, and because everyone was in class I was just left there. Serves me right, I suppose.
I feel terribly guilty about erniemacmillan. I always do this - I loose my temper and say things that I regret for weeks and now I'm not sure how to make things right. I'd apologise in a second, only I'm not sure he'd listen to me even if I did. I just don't know what to do. It's all a terrible mess.
And because everyone isn't talking to me, I've got no one to consult - there's just me and my guilt.
I think I might write to Eve. That usually makes me feel a little better. And have a quiet chat with seamus_f to see what an outsider thinks.
Thursday was the worst. I think I was actually delusional at one point - I simply couldn't think straight, it hurt even to try. I think I must have fainted coming back from the bathroom because I woke up some time later on the floor, and because everyone was in class I was just left there. Serves me right, I suppose.
I feel terribly guilty about erniemacmillan. I always do this - I loose my temper and say things that I regret for weeks and now I'm not sure how to make things right. I'd apologise in a second, only I'm not sure he'd listen to me even if I did. I just don't know what to do. It's all a terrible mess.
And because everyone isn't talking to me, I've got no one to consult - there's just me and my guilt.
I think I might write to Eve. That usually makes me feel a little better. And have a quiet chat with seamus_f to see what an outsider thinks.