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Once Upon a Time
Once upon a time my heart was okay, or actually, that wasn't to long ago. That was at the beginning of the summer. Now it's so close to the end I can almost taste the bitter, sad, salty tears running down my face. But I can't cry yet, I wont cry yet. Those tears aren't for now. They are for later when I need something familiar. When that time ( Read more... ) -
Why?
Why does everyone keep telling me about something I already know about? I know my metabolism isn't the fastest and I know that if I keep eating all the time I'm going to get fat. I realize that, but it's just, it gets to annoying and hurtful when people bring it up all the time. And then when I do lose a little weight I'm doing the wrong thing ( Read more... ) -
What I've learned and what I want.
This year has been one of the most complicated, wonderful, mixed up year of my life. This year I've accomplished little, lost little and gained much. I've learned that fear is nothing more than a mind game and true love is found without searching; falling in love happens when you're not looking and when falling in love you find out who your real ( Read more... ) -
Nights Like Tonight
Nights like tonight are the most frustrating for me. I hate them. My heart is filled with love and the only words I can think of are "I'm in love." But that's not all. There are other words that should accompany those. Like: want, need and trust. I wish there was one word that meant all of those words and that one phrase together. I want him ( Read more... ) -
March '08
If you asked me if love was worth all the hardships we go through for it, I'd have to ask you to let me think about it. Love as a whole sucks. Parts of love aren't worth the hardships. But what makes it all worth while are all the good times. The times when we can sit next to eatother, not talking, and have a converstaion. It's the moments ( Read more... ) -
Thinking is dangerous
For the past week and a half I've been away from AJ and I've been thinking more and more about this move and about how I'm going to have to leave him. I've started thinking that being away from him sucks, but being able to talk on the phone almost every night isn't to terrible. And then I've been thinking that maybe, possibly we might be able to ( Read more... ) -
Familiar
Familiar is a word I'm not exactly familiar with. It's a word that people have always used to describe the "constance" around me. (i.e. my mom, my dad, my sister, my brother or a new house.) All that used to seem familiar until now. Now, I'm 16 and I barely know who I am without having to worry about where I fit into everyone's life ( Read more... ) -
What someone says
I've noticed more and more that people opinions about certain areas of my life have affect me more than I though. The other day my mom told me that she thought I was getting too serious with AJ considering we have to break up at the end of the summer anyways. At the moment she said it I thought "Whatever, I'm going to do what I want to do." But ( Read more... ) -
January and February '08
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Looking Back
I was going through my superman journal, where alot of my better poems are, trying to figure out which ones were December and which ones were November and sorting it all out when I came across a "List of Goals." One of them was "To love someone truley and with all my heart." I was so proud, I got to check that one off.
Looking back at something ( Read more... )