I realized last night why I love music. (by music I mean REAL music, not that shit country music or terrible boy band bullshit ( Read more... )

Im lying in a pool of blood resting inside my own bone cage and here I cry bitter tears of selfish fear like rain drops fat in spring air before they plop into this crimson puddle and silence ensues my thoughts go quiet for a second yet acid anxiety churns within me bubbling over over my edge and I pour out vulnerability intermixed with pride an ( Read more... )

im now on 2 blood pressure meds

im currently collecting all my urine from one day in a jug that i must keep cold in the fridge

i lost some more blood for testing today

i get to play intramural football tomorrow with a heart monitor on

oh and i cant drink anymore, no more than 2 drinks a day.

- Lost

seattle is calling my name.

my emotions are freakishly intense ( Read more... )

interesting night.

i loathe those of you who sleep soundly at night. no seriously, on nights like these i lay awake and plan your demise. whether i envision a mental nuclear bomb with the ability to attack those who are in an unconscious state or simply imagine finding sleeping people nestled in bed only to wake them as i eat their fetus. i hate you ( Read more... )

i was writing tonight and decided to stop caring. so here ya go ( Read more... )

my blood is stable. my heart is still broken.

my eyes are blind ( Read more... )