so i think it's safe to say that the last couple of mostly everythings have been pretty crazy lately. last night i didn't go to sleep, i went to a sketchy karaoke bar with a new friend who i had eaten dinner with, and then played pool, and wandered all night, and sang on the dock of a bay, and then jumped into the harbor, and then i went on to meet ( Read more... )

i want to write something really long to let everyone know how much i think of them, and what i'm doing when i think of them, and what i've been feeling and where i've been living, but i'm starting to get worried that the ice cream in my bag is going to melt before i can take it up the huge hill where i've been for a week- tonight may or may not be ( Read more... )

okay. i am in auckland, new zealand. today i resolved to do something in this city. yesterday i wandered around, got lost for four hours, and was so relieved to find the hostel that it could have been my home. last night i slept on a plastic pillow and woke up in the middle of the night after having a nightmare. evan and i stumbled on to this ( Read more... )

hey everyone, thank you to the kids who came to say goodbye and those who couldn't for being my friends and making my life meaningful. so, this is my last day at home for a while. new zealand for three months, i mostly think it's very cool and pretty exciting and highly unknown and a little confusing and scary and lonely. i hope there will be a ( Read more... )

i feel really inarticulate, and really overwhelmed. okay. i just got home from chinatown in new york, and before that i was in chinatown in dc, and before that i was at american university, and all of that time i was with lenore. and before that i was sitting around at home for the last few weeks, staying up too late and doing too little, feeling ( Read more... )

this live journal entry on september 6th, 2005 is a direct reference to Lenore Slota Costello, who i'm going to see once this longest most daydream filled week ever is over, and who is the only person i can stand talking to on the phone but still can't wait to see in person.

for the first time in a long time, i am BORED. as a result of loneliness; nothing to do, nothing done, with nobody. just distance man. but at the same time, i feel vaguely excited. like butterflies in my stomach, this feeling i used to get looking out my window when i was six or seven. not for anything in particular or anything real, just the ( Read more... )

i'm going to vermont tonight to hang out with my grandparents and family, it'll be a lot of fun. i used to go there when i was a bunch younger and i'd sit in a big jacuzzi and then a big chair and then run around on a big lawn and eat a big meal and sleep really well. so, hopefully the good stuff is still big, i don't think you ever really outgrow ( Read more... )

so. i'm sitting here in the chair in my computer room, and the crickets are really loud. i got back from hope's a little while ago, she's going to college on monday. but i didn't even realize that, i just kinda hung out and played cards (or tried? you guys were definitely making up the rules as you went along) and eyed the pizza and looked around. ( Read more... )

hm. the last three songs that've played on the speakers are "as time goes by", "are you lonesome tonight" and now "only living boy in new york". i'm the only person in my house; eric's in peru and evan's in florida and so are my parents. my grandparents are in vermont. melanie is with paolo on mars, alex kramer traveled back in time to the ice age ( Read more... )