i dont even know what is going on anymore...i really dont understand what more could happen ( Read more... )

i dont know what happened tonite, but something seriously set something off in me and really got me to thinking ( Read more... )

im so confused...

reality is setting in.

so my last entry was on the 21st. at that point i thought my life was sucking the big one...it seemed pretty bad. but thats just it...it SEEMED bad. yes i was, and still am, stressed out. but things werent bad...just stressful. NOW things are bad. its not until that very next day that things got bad. december 22nd, the day matt died. i still cant ( Read more... )

so jean and i ARENT talking anymore...i shouldve know...im just too hopeful of a person. im not all that upset, though. yes i miss her, and it does hurt a lot of the time to think that i lost one of the closest people to me...but at the same time, i sit here and say all of this just "as-a-matter-of-factly". thats just the way i feel rite now. like ( Read more... )

so jean and i are talking again. i guess its kind of weird the way it happened, really. sunday nite, we were all going bowling, and i didnt really wanna go...im so tired of bowling all the time. but i didnt wanna stay home by myself...its not like i could call anyone to hang out with. so i decided that i was gonna go, but in order to have a good ( Read more... )

why cant they ever send me the important information ahead of time? like the day before...or something...why must i recieve important concert info the day that the event is happening. like that gives me any time to find out important information like whether i can afford it, whos going to attend the show with me, and the fact that i have to be able ( Read more... )

weezer-

i LOVE your music,

but as people...

YOU SUCK!!

weezer and the foo fighters in worcester oct. 15th.

WOO HOO!

p.s. i miss justin