so ive fucked up big this time. i dont even think theres a word to describe how bad this is. ive betrayed a close friend-which to me is the worst you could possibly do. i mean i dont regret what happened, its just the whole situation is BAD. i totally went about it the wrong way, and thats probably what i regret more than anything. actually no... ( Read more... )

saw viv last nite. headed over to newbury comics and finally got coldplays new album. then it was off to tommys for the best chix parmesian sandwich out there ( Read more... )

really didnt wanna get up this morning. every nite that he stays over, that next morning is harder and harder for me to get outta bed. just wanna lay there forever. almost called out today. but ill see him tonite ( Read more... )

why do i do the things i do???

so theres not really much going on. jean, nicole, nicole s., and i went to hell on thursday-college nite. it actually wasnt bad. probably the best time ive ever had at a club where theres hip hop playing. prolly go again. hopefully jean, carla, and i will be heading out to hell on tuesday...ive been itching to get over there ( Read more... )

hangin out with ryan tonite. me, him, jean, and mike hung out on sunday. it was fun, except for mike. hes so annoying. i dont understand how ryan can be friends with him...theyre so different-ryan is so awesomely cool, and mikes just NOT. anyway, apparently hes had a thing for me for some time now. which is awesome because i was interested in him ( Read more... )

She asked him if he liked her; he said no ( Read more... )

so, i didnt get to see dane cook in mass last week...but there is a god. and hes being kind to me. :) dane cook is coming to the newport yachting center june 18th. tix go on sale next week, and i cant wait ( Read more... )

so im officially on roseanns's shitlist. thats jeans mom. she found out i drink and then i said it was gay that she reads all jeans stuff. so for that, im two-face and not allowed in her house. whatever. so jesse and justin welcomed me to the club with open arms. its so ridiculous. lol. jean doesnt care, she says shell get over it, and its not ( Read more... )

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