I have been trying really hard lately to change a lot about myself. My new goal I instituted yesterday is not wearing make-up until the 1st of December (unless for crazy important stuff). I have only been absent of make-up for less than 24 hours now & I feel like I am going insane. I have gotten about 7 hours of sleep a night or more. I really ( Read more... )

Yes, it has been a while since I have typed up an entry. It is hard sometimes. I journal when I have my strongest emotions, and at that, usually negatives ones or secret pent up ones. What is the thrill of letting others read our inner thoughts that were previously not verbalized. Maybe I can't transition from my personal journal to this one. ( Read more... )

So, I found out this morning what it feels to see the sky light up with life. It is so crazy how the sun affects us. Once you have stayed up from sunlight to sunlight it makes you think differently about the night. I guess you could say in a way that it demystifies it?! I am working at the desk this morning for the fist time. I have to do this ( Read more... )

So. . . where do I start today! umm. . .I am a pathetic loser who is failing out of school. I am at the library right now to catch up on my studies and chill w/ my girl Dannica. . . one of the awesome girl on my floor! I am a little upset about my grade in ENG 340 right now, but I will not complain about it anymore. . . I have already been ( Read more... )

Sometimes I don't feel worthy of the love that is given to me, that I am blessed with ( Read more... )

All my life I have been the ultimately pure girl. I was a hard core advocate of sexual purity in high school, reading everything I could get my hands on and talking to everyone that was interested in hearing why God's beautiful creation of sex and marriage and intimacy and what-not comes in an amazing package that most of us can't see. Then about ( Read more... )

Once a week I work at the Dean's Office of the College of Natural and Applied Science. Today is that day & I have 2 and a half productive hours ahead me, or so I would like to think. Today I am sick and have been carrying around with me a kleenex box that has become my best friend. I hereby pronounce him. . .Joseph! I dunno, I had to. . . ( Read more... )

I just done hanging out with a friend (haven't figured out how anonymous I want to be on this journal yet) at Jordan Valley Park. It was fun times in the amphitheater even without the fountains on. I realized so much tonight that I need to journal about. I have had a really hard time lately with prioritizing everything in my life. I have spent ( Read more... )

So, hmmm... where would I like to start. I will say hello then . . to all of those people who aren't reading this . . .ever. For those who are reading this, beware! There are very few times that I can express myself purely and uninhibited . . . jounaling is one of those times when I can. If you don't want to know what I am really thinking you ( Read more... )