Comments | happybuddha: Setting one thing straight..

happybuddha

Setting one thing straight..

Aug 27, 2002 09:42

OK i am starting to get really pissed at people especially ryan right now. Everyone keeps saying i never loved ryan that i don't know what love is, i am too young to love, that love must be requanted. They know shit, I loved ryan, so here is how everything happened ( Read more... )

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Believe in yourself lnknprkgrl August 27 2002, 15:59:07 UTC

dont listen to what other people have said to you, if in your heart you really feel that you loved ryan, and you care so much to write this looong journal entry about him, he really must have meant something special to you. and you shouldnt have to defend yourself to anyone. cuz i know from personal experience, you cant help who you have feelings for and care about.

Re: Believe in yourself happybuddha August 27 2002, 16:33:31 UTC

Thanx Girl you help me preach it to them

yay!!! happybuddha August 27 2002, 19:24:52 UTC

ok a user named survivor_globie wrote this comment to this same post in the Gay_Boys group here is what he said:

It looks as if you truly love him. Lucky you! I'll say this once, I'll say it again, I'll say it a million times, I'll say it...Dammit, you get the idea. If you truly love him, then it wouldn't matter if he lived in a trailer or a mansion, or if he lived on the right or wrong side of the proverbial railroad tracks. You love him. It's love, and there ain't no bones about it. Those who say otherwise you have my blessing to stick a fork up their assholes (the prickly side!)

I'm starting to sound like a hag...

Cheers, love, hugs and kisses! (overcompensating...)

happybuddha August 27 2002, 19:50:01 UTC

ok these are all comments made by other users to this same post in some groups i am members of:

Honestly, I first would have said that you were just obbessesed and lusting after this guy. But I have to say that I was quick to judge on that. You said that Ryan isn't the type of guy that you would normaly give the time of day. But something attracted you to him. Something that you can't really explain. Moreover, your feelings about not being able to give him what was taken away from you proved to me that you do love him.
sf_treatLove had nothing to do with age. It has to do with maturity. Love itself is a completly undescriptive term, because love is not a single definable word. It is like water, you can pour it into an vessel, any relationship, and it will take the shape of that vessel (in this case relationship) but will still be the same water it always was. I dont doubt for a moment that you loved Ryan. Love is something that is only you can see for yourself. Nobody has any right to judge whether or not you're in love, because they are ( ... )

I will.... tobey_twink August 27 2002, 21:40:25 UTC

not stand for anyone saying what you did. I do not belive you becuase I dont want to. It doesnt mean it isnt true. I cant be loved! I will not be loved. I am not something that deserves love.

"I am a creature of the underworld. I cant afford to be loved."

My entire life I have believed one very simple thing.
Damned to an existence of loneliness.
I have believed that my entire life. I look for love where ever I go hence why I manipulate, I need the acceptance. Its simple. I can not be loved.

Re: I will.... happybuddha August 28 2002, 03:48:30 UTC

Ryan, why do you keep refusing to let me love you, you so deserve to be loved, i wish by me, but if not by someone, you deserve to be loved more than anyone, just please let someone in, me, anyone, open up to them they will help, you deserve to be loved and you are loved.

Re: I will.... tobey_twink August 28 2002, 14:39:42 UTC

I opened up once. Then Paul told me we shouldnt be together so I can grow.

Re: I will.... happybuddha August 28 2002, 14:46:12 UTC

I am sorry that paul doesn't love you, but i do, and if you won't let me love then someone else will i promise you that. Please let me love you, give me a chance to show you what being loved is like again, so you know how good it feels and want to search for that love again, you need to be loved, i can handle it, i have grown, i can handle loving you, if not me though let someone else, please just let someone love you, or atleast be close to you, stop shutting yourself off to the world and let we, your friends in and let us listen and help. PLease so let me in, let someone in, and let yourself be loved, you truly do deserve it more than anyone else i know.
Love always,
Aaron

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lnknprkgrl September 1 2002, 11:53:03 UTC

let us all get along in this world with such hatred and loss and be kind. obviously you care bunches about ryan. Ryan ya need to see that love.

Thanx happybuddha September 1 2002, 14:19:10 UTC

You are so great!!!! And I love your picture, and bois make me cry too, well I want to add you to my firends list, can i? Come on please?~Smooches, aaron

Re: Thanx lnknprkgrl September 1 2002, 16:03:39 UTC

sure. sounds cool to me! i already added you. lol. talk to you later