Gone.....

[happybuddha]

He left me again, we were friends, closer than we had ever been before and i screwed up again and he decided he never wants to talk, I always screw things up, i always hurt myself and those i love, I was kicked out of paul's house for how i was around ryan, and ryan decided that him ad i should never talk, he said that he hates me, that if i were

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*hugs you*

[xxxblack_catxxx]

God, I'm so sorry...that...that is honestly wrong. That boy has issues. Huge issues.

Sad thing is I don't hate him. You know why? Because if I gave into hate, everything I know and love would be destroyed later on by it. Soon the hatred would grow inside my heart. I can't hate a person. I can only pity Ryan for what the fuck he's doing right now. Soon all he will have is himself. And I pity that he's destroying all he loves and knows.

You don't need that Aaron. You're to beautiful of a person for that. We can by together. We're strong like that.

Just hold on...*hugs you*

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[vigormortus]

*raises hand*..Oh...me please... I'm real good at disliking people...

Than I guess...

[xxxblack_catxxx]

...we're from two different worlds, you and I, ne?

I doubt it

[vigormortus]

How many worlds can Jhonen Vasquez be the complete and total ruler of? But if we take into account that disliking someone doesnt mean harming or nay saying them ... perhaps just avoidance (by no means do I mean you Aaron..I wasnt avoiding you friday...I really did go to a bar-b-que..I have videos) I can boy-cott people because I dislike them. I would never say I hate people...but I dislike a lot of people (mostly due to stupidity) but anyways... Jhonen... JTHM...those were the days

[anonymous]

Aaron Roddy, I adore you and love you SO MUCH. You are most definately one of my best friends.
I want you to know that you can always come to me to talk. Call me, 4:00 in the morning, whatever. My number one job is to be the best friend I can be to you. Keep your chin up, kid.
~Rachel~

Honesty at its best. Only however when its best.

[tobey_twink]

I cant hate you. I push you away because you tap into something I will never tap into. Something beautiful. You are not for me Aaron. I dont want to see you throw your life away. And though you have hurt me like no others ever have I still think we can be friends. I dont know on your part but I can make it work. I only ask for one thing

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[vigormortus]

it's not my place to say what did or didnt happen. i do know however that no one should say anything just to please someone. But also know that I do not like the actions of which Aaron wrote above. Because I know how it feels to be pushed out of someones life you couldnt help but love. Attraction/feelings are uncontrollable and to shun someone for not being able to control them is silly. No matter how you try, you cant stop things from showing all the time. For the person I know Aaron to be I dont think I could ever tell him to never talk to me again. Thats why this bothers me so.

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[tobey_twink]

Frank you honestly confuse me. If I told you how much just getting to talk to you made me happy you wouldnt believe me. How much I have come to realize that I loved you and have wanted to just call you up and invite you to a movie. I was so afraid of my feelings for you I pushed you away as well. You may not think so but its how I feel. It may not intirely be true. But I cant help but feel ome remorse for what passed between us.
You tell me about your sleeping problem and want to cry because I dream of being there for you and I mean daydream because of how you felt for me.
What I have done in the past was wrong no doubt. I hate myself for what I did. I can only ask that you understand how I truly felt about what actually went on underneath this sham or fisad!

Re: Honesty at its best. Only however when its best.

[happybuddha]

Ryan people keep asking me why I still love you, why i still want you, why i still love you, why i still care about you, this is why, this is why i love you.