I am so scared, scared of many things ( Read more... )

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I really like the name Ryan;)


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So i am finally getting over the whole Ryan not liking me thing, given I will still have my moments for a while but for the most part i am over it, although i still love him deeply, I have realised that for now we can just be friends, and Ryan is the greatest person in the world, so I can settle for being friends ( Read more... )

Last night I promised Ryan that i wouldn't loose hope in love. But i am not sure if that is a promise i can keep, at first i thought it was, but now i am not sure anymore, after crying all day every minute seem smore hopeless than the last, that i will ever actually find someone. Ryan said I will find someone that will love me, but how is that ( Read more... )

so i finally talked to ryan about everything i have needed to talk to him about and well here's how it went ( Read more... )

Here are two quotes, the first one concerning my feeling about myself and emotions especially towards what i previously wrote today. And the second quote, is to Ryan and about Ryan, this the quote i told you about yesterday and think it kinda explains what you do to me ( Read more... )

"No one knows what happens anymore in their lives. I live for love. I love to live. Look at the contradiction? Why do we all leave ourselves behind for the better. Die everyone. Die for yourselves. Everyone dies for the hope of someone else. I die for myself. I live and die for myself. Everyone takes for granted their own needs and wants. Noone ( Read more... )

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right now i am so confused on what i need to do, I used to have a thing for mickie but he had a b/f and all and i also met ryan at the time and I became friends with him and i truly fell completely head over heels for him and i still am that way, even though I haven't said anything to his face about it, but I really don't think I have any chance ( Read more... )