something about the past few days is off. I had 4 hours of sleep and completed all my school work. came home today and fell asleep without realizing it. 4 hours later i was in a daze. now, im not tired at all. i need to get in sync with the rest of the world. lol. blah i need to talk to people now, i dont have schoolwork to do! mehhhhhhhh

"our society is tactilly deprived"

yeah.

spiritual poverty. thats what mother Theresa called it. sigh. i totally get it. it makes me sick. i lose sleep. i dont know how to fix it.

sometimes i feel that I am a really open person.. and I see others who aren't. I don't know how they make it. I see things in other people, I can see it. How could anyone survive without opening up and pouring themselves out to someone? I know lately i've been dying. I realize I don't have any intimate relationships with people, that I could truely ( Read more... )

i thought about it today, about how it was with kami. it wasnt perfect but it was good. since then i've told myself there would be something better. so far there isn't. there isnt anything worth 1/10 of how good we had it. i don't want to live in the past or anything, im just very frustrated now. i just realized yesterday the only friends who are ( Read more... )

why doesnt anything go smoothly? it seems so simple but it never turns out that way.

i dont feel special at all. i feel easily replaced, as if anyone would care if i wasnt here anyway. oh well. i'll make it though. ppoepoepoepeodlldflpoooooop

all i know is that i am obsessed with metric.

it could be so simple, lets see.

calculation theme

story of my sortid life

im such a ho ( Read more... )

it started thursday when I had a sore throat. it got worse friday, I woke up with a fever of 100 degrees. i had a test at 9:10. it was raining. luckily paul gave me a ride to school, but i still got wet. in the middle of the test i have to use the restroom. there goes 10 minutes. sigh this whole thing was looking sour. the test was simple, if i ( Read more... )

a-woah-a-dang ( Read more... )