i was just gonna leave my lj deleted...but then something came up, and we all have to leave now. were going to utah, my grandma died a couple of days ago... i don't know how i feel, i don't know if i want to feel... so if anybody is wondering where i've gone, well now you know, i'll be back on friday or saturday, if you want to talk to me go a head ( Read more... )

um, in case anyone is wondering, i'm gonna delete my journal in a couple of days...

just thought you might like to know...

i don't want to remember, what is all ready too clear...

so what's the next step? how come some day's it's perfectly clear what i need to do, but other days the weight i feel becomes unbearable and i can no longer breathe. i woke up today and refused to open my eyes, refused to take in everything that was around me because i knew it would be the same as it was the day before and i just didn't want to go ( Read more... )

these day's have shifted into something completely different, i thought i could label it but boy was i wrong. i don't feel numb any more, but i still can't quite put my finger on it, i know now that this place is home, but i'm still not really paying for it. i know that i can do this on my own, but it's still so cold at night... the path in front ( Read more... )

i just noticed i look really brusied about the face in my icon...or maybe it's just this moniter...either way i need a new one...
i could probably use a little help...that means you...
i think it should probably be a pink floyd one this time...okay sorry to have wasted your time
you may go about your business...

now

will
it
never
end?

there's nothing left...even to complain about...except me, i guess i'll always be there...*sigh*...still can't stand living with myself...living in this head of mine...all these fucked up thoughts...but not a single one ever escaping my mouth...oh no...we must not let on...what they probably all ready know...*sigh*...nevermind ( Read more... )

nobody know's where you are...how near or how far...

( what difference does it make? )

( tomorrow we fly )