All i want is to have inner happiness, all i want is to smile and see things in a positive light.

I will make it nowhere if I continue with this..

So I think its funny that I use this journal as a venting tool. I look through all my entries and I'm saying to myself.. damn I'm an angry person. Who would have thought? hahaha. I'm not though...thats the funny thing ( Read more... )

so supposedly im not a very good friend...
thats strange to think that about myself..

Back to anti-depressants/anxiety pills.

I can't bring myself up alone, I need some help. As much as I don't want it, I need it. maybe just for a short while?

cannot take stupid, irrational, impulsive, lazy, unappriciative, babbling, self centered, ugly as fuckkkkkkk bitch anymore.. but of course...im stuck. awesome!!!!!!!!!

I AM SO SICK AND TIRED OF BEING USED BY YOU. YOUR GOING TO GET NO WHERE IN LIFE IF YOU KEEP THINKING THAT IM GONNA DO IT ALL FOR YOU. FUCK YOU ( Read more... )

its hard to explain how i feel these days. i think my anxiety is taking the best of me. and my obsessiveness. god how i wish for a moment i would just relax (without smoking) and not think about what to do with my life..every day its another thing..everyday i change, and think about all the other options i have ( Read more... )

so. i got my reduction...and im in a lot of pain. A LOTTTTT. but i think im satisfied.

i feel so light!

These guys are males, super sweet and playful. SOMEONE PLEASE SAVE THEM OR ELSE THEY WILL BE PUT DOWN :(


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