i just need one more thing, just one more thing to go wrong and i'll never go outside again. i'm just going to lock myself in my closet and chat with random strangers online.

school started today and i was so pissed off about school and stupid math that i just didn't give a fuck all day and that was clear on my face, tomorrow will be the same god ( Read more... )

well, things are really coming together now. turns out after i tried to get all my biology lab crap taken care of, it still didn't change my degree review form. jerks. and thats the only one that counts. so fuck registrar for telling me if they made note of it on my transcript that they would see it. fuck them. so anyways, i wanted to meet with dr ( Read more... )

steadily my days are getting better, swiftly accompanied by my nights. the last few dreams haven't been too disturbing. progress.....mmm, i like it. yesterday was kind of weird though. i put up a status on facebook on wednesday that said "not in a happy place" and yesterday people started responding to it like i'd posted something super dramatic. i ( Read more... )

i can still picture it in my mind when i close my eyes. its going to suck when i can't anymore.

so im back from europe. still haven't decided how i feel about that yet. you get all these visions of home and it looks so nice and then you come home and you remember that its the same place you were desperate to leave and oh yea nothing's changed. not like everythings wrong, i really dont want to go back to work at starbucks, im going to look for ( Read more... )

so i have 2 days left in london, im in the middle of this day, but the rain has not ceased since before i woke up this morning. i have a huge headache and have taken 2 naps. bleh. all this rain is soooooo blllllllllleeeeeeehhhhhhhh. i couldn't get on a tour to stonehenge because they're only going on friday and friday is when my mom gets here and ( Read more... )

so yesterday was john's family's last day so we got up early, went out walking then headed towards the british museum. we said we'd meet up in 2 hours and so i was darting through the museum trying to get to the stuff i really wanted to see. i went through the egypt stuff hoping to stumble upon the rosetta stone, alas, i dont know where it is, i ( Read more... )

so yesterday we went to paris for the day and it was amazing. we started out at notre dame. which was great, i'd never been in a cathedral like that before and of course, i mean, come on its notre dame. it was amazing, just coming out of the subway and crossing the seine to get to it, it was amazing, there aren't words. we listened to a little bit ( Read more... )

they're all hanging out, and being british and its weird. london smells funny. i dont think i like it. i haven't been to anything exciting yet though, i've just seen the actual places where these strange creatures come from ( Read more... )

 so i leave the day after tomorrow and i pretty much just had a panic attack because i realized how much stuff i have to do and then it was hard to breath. and my aunt just called from hawaii to ask about it and everything just hit me all at once, tomorrow is my last full day here and i really can't waste 6 hours at work, im going to have to call ( Read more... )