haven't written an lj in months, and its been a super long time since i wrote a serious one so lets see ( Read more... )

im so fucking tired of looking at these fucking books and these fucking papers and spending time looking for more fucking information because the shit i already have which is a fucking lot is not fucking enough and i have to write two damned pages a day in order to finish it in fucking time and not have my brain completely melt into my shoes. ( Read more... )

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/uk_news/england/london/7681914.stm

i hope they have those bus ads when i go back!

procrastinating..... got a math exam tomorrow and im sick of looking at graphs and equations, i can't wait til winter break when i can not look at math for a month, before of course then again doing nothing but look at math some more. of course winter break will be nothing but me looking for a full time job, but i'm getting ahead of myself, i have ( Read more... )

just a quick update since this is a desperate procrastination. bleh. the rough draft of my thesis is due thursday. i have a paragraph written. wow. for all excitement now put aside, i got on the dean's list for last semester. i completely and totally never thought i would ever get that letter, but i did cause i'm special and im smart. :D really ( Read more... )

i have to comment on whats been going on lately. it has been crazy. i have so much to do this week so of course we went out of town and of course i've been sick all day. i'm also reading the most boring book. oh well. i changed my thesis, but i like it a lot better now and dr. houck likes it better. i had to make a speech last week about ( Read more... )

this week has been incredible. not just from one thing in particular, its just been really positive and....fulfilling, i guess thats the right word. i've been to the library more then i've been home, and i love it. dr. houck is impressed with the work i've been doing with my thesis and i'm in love with my topic so i think its going to be something ( Read more... )

i got in a fight with justin last night. perfectly harmless fight, i could feel it as i was fighting with him. i knew he was right and i was right and i knew the fight wasn't going to solve anything or make anything better or worse, it was just a fight for rather pointless reasons. i think that most fights come because one person is going through ( Read more... )

so i had a dream last night that shed me some light on my recent struggle. i had been in a relationship with someone for some time and had behaved badly and done somethings i wasn't really proud of. i knew that i loved him and cared about him, but i acted poorly and i dont know why. i would go on dates with other people, i wouldn't answer the phone ( Read more... )

so the funeral is over with, we all got through it, like well i guess you have to. the visitation was good, started some good conversations with family members i dont get to see that often. susan is here from london, brought sam and lucy so i got to see them which i loved because i miss them a lot. then friday morning sean and i had breakfast with ( Read more... )