i can honestly say im very happy, and that is the truth. for once my happiness isnt my most worn mask. and i love it. Josh is so amazing, and i love him with all my heart. and everything is just good. i quit the strip club, and bbv is okay. im developing my skills as a photographer, because my baby is very photogenic, and well the camera loves him ( Read more... )

so i started college, and it fuckin blows. i hate it so much, so here i am a college drop out. im never going again. and so im just going to withdrawl. which honestly isnt a big deal. why pay money to go to school when you hate and are probably never going to go ne ways. so im trying to think of what to do now, and where to go when i decide to ( Read more... )

so ive been working like crazy the past week, its good tho.. good money! loves it! im making mad cash. last night at the manor was slow.. beer bin girl, dont get any dirty ideas. its not very often you know a hot girl who works at the manor, and DOESNT strip! but i dont. i went shopping before work, and bought a cute new outfit, and wore it ( Read more... )

had a great day with Sandra yesterday. we just hung out, did each others hair and make up. watched movies, and went shopping a lil at shoppers. man its so easy to spend money! i hate it. but yea. we talked about stuff, and it went really well. love ya baby girl. we'll make it thru! like we always do. and honestly fuck BEN! stupid fucker. he ( Read more... )

WOW! so i started working at the manor like mby 2 weeks ago. ive had four shifts, and in those four shifts i made about 400$$. NICE NICE!! but, everyone thinks im a stripper. more last night then any other night.. i got asked my two drunk fucks if i was working. i believe the exact words was "Hey Baby, you working?" im like umm no! they're ( Read more... )

FUCK LIFE! i have no money, no family, and no one to love me. I HATE MY LIFE

SHAWN!!!! thanks baby for a great day!!! i had so much fun.. i really didnt want you to go.. the walk in the park, and the cuddling in the bed.. AWW BABES love you so so much!!!! good times, and im promise that if you wait another 6 years to see me, i will cut your eyes out myself. but not truthfully.. i will be really hurt if you dont come see ( Read more... )

man! life is so random. i was supposed to go out with Gregor on Monday Night because i had the day off. and i eneded up going to Tyler's, and getting SO BLAZED! man i was fuckin baaaaaaaaakkkkkkkeeeeeedddd. hahahaha and went to see wedding crashes for the 2nd time, and passed right the fuck out in the theatre. WOW im amaazing! tyler is so ( Read more... )

had a great night at the palace with the boys. got so liqured, and i spent like 5 dollars mby. gotta love the boys who will pay for your drinks.. i was SO DRUNK! lol i came home at 4:30, after spending sometime to get to know Wes.. with the beautiful red Talon. man i love that car, of course one of ben's friends.. but all in all a GREAT night. ( Read more... )

i guess its time for me to finally grow up, and see people for who they really are.. and see myself for who i really am.. whoever that is. i dont think i have a positive thought within a 50 mile radius. im going to be alone forever.. and as for ben, its time for me to finally say "goodbye to you, goodbye to everything i thought i knew" im so ( Read more... )