my new user name: beautyis_dead.

yeah so today kinda sucks. i guess. idk. im just in a blah mood. i want to be happy. and not fake it. i mean at school im happy, but sometimes i just feel like i can't do anything right. yeah know. and know im doubting things. that he likes me. that im really as good as people say i am. and that people just lie all the time to my face ( Read more... )

todays events. woke up went to church. i saw the EMO kid. hes kinda cute, in his own little way. other than that it was just the usual. during worship i took took time to think about whats going on in my life. its just hard trying to sort out everything. its hard trying to firgue out whats going on with me. i don't realize whats really going on ( Read more... )

yeah so today i woke up and then around 130 i went to go get my hair cut. its a little above my sholders. its cute. but i'd rather have it layered differently. but today i couldn't because of how it was done before. so im stuck with it like this. then after my sister was done getting hers cut we went to matta's. and we showed our mom our hair. my ( Read more... )

yeah this whole week has been kinda rough for me. man where do i start. first off i went shopping for labor day. that was cool. me and my sister talked a bunch. then tuesday i did something really stupid. and wednesday i told alex about it. and i understand why he reacted the way he did. yeah know. well if you knew what i was talking about you ( Read more... )

FUCKING A!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. life sucks right now. im in such a weird/ pissy mood. and im depressed to the max. idk whats wrong. well i do, but im not in the mood to let everyone know. and the people who do know, well they just got lucky. Amanda and Shelby don't even know. thats how crazy this is. its killing me ( Read more... )

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ok, so today was a ok day. things were going good this morning except for the fact i was running late this morning. man do i hate a.hour. its sucks ass. o well thou. classes were ok. orchestra was ghetto gay. and english was boring. but we don't do much so its a easy class. math was boring, i hate that class. i miss mr. simon. lol. and spanish was ( Read more... )

last night i went to annies house. that was fun. then areound 630-7 we went over to amandas and went to brandons and stayed there for a little while and watched a band play they weren't that great. but at least they tried. and umm. . . around 730 me and annie walked over to alex's house. that was one insteresting walk over. lol. she crazks me up so ( Read more... )

i haven't been able to write in here for a while. man schools school. lol. swimmings ok. today i had to swim a 500. and i didn't do flip turns bc i have a prolbem breathing. shh. . . lol. and yeah after that i had to do a 100 which isn't that bad. but i felt like shit to begine with. you kno? yeah but ive been able to see alex like everyday. thats ( Read more... )