the truth? the truth as I see it is you don't love me like you used to. you haven't for a very long time. I will always be yr second best. just here to distract you from yr loneliness.... until you find someone you really want to be with ( Read more... )

today I am lost.... tomorrow I will wonder why I'm still here ( Read more... )

reading old livejournal posts, I realized I was a pussy.

I need to find out where he's buried.... I can't find it. I need to find it. I can't get him out of my head. he's dead. he's really dead. the only constant is change. I'm not thinking straight. I need to keep busy because its finally hitting me... he's dead and I wasn't there. I'm a bad person. even in death I'm a selfish person. he was the first ( Read more... )

 got this feeling ( Read more... )

 I love how kailan can really put it all in perspective for me.

 I can never decode what yr saying.... everytime I think things are fine it turns out they are anything but fine.....

just let me in.

 I think I'm done reading livejournal. it only ends up confusing me and making me sad. so I'm done.

sorry I ruined yr life.

 today I feel ugly and insignificant.

so its a day like every other.