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so now you can really stab me in the front

Just wanted to say that I'm no longer going to keep a Livejournal. Some people find it amusing to scrutinize my every word and use it against me. So in order to keep out of misdirected troubles...i am discontinuing this beast.

hardcore.amanda.//.signing.off.

"Armistice Day has become Veterans' Day. Armistice Day was sacred. Veterans' Day is not. So I will throw Veterans' Day over my shoulder. Armistice Day I will keep. I don't want to throw away any sacred things. What else is sacred? Oh, Romeo and Juliet, for instance. And all music is." ~ "Breakfast of Champions" By Kurt Vonnegut ( Read more... )

I'm listening to Christmas music. It reminds me of when Adam and I were eating Italian food in his kitchen...listening to this cd of Christmas tunes...talking. We have such fun times, really we do. I am missing him a lot more lately...maybe it's the weather ( Read more... )

I spent the night alone last night and I'm alive this morning. I had lots of bad dreams, but that could have just been the brownie I ate before bed ( Read more... )

I'm an emotional wreck and I need to be on medicine. I fucking NEED chemicals inside of me to artificially generate some sort of happiness feeling. Or some sort of numbness. I can't get along with anyone. My paranoia pisses Jon-Eric off. My attitude prevents me and Liz from getting along. My selfish thinking hurts Eric...and Scooter hasn't ( Read more... )

Sorry I haven't updated a lot lately...I've been so out of it, really ( Read more... )

I can't do this alone. Sing us a song, a song to keep us warm, there's such a chill, such a chill. You can laugh a spineless laugh, we hope your rules and wisdom choke you. Now we are one in everlasting peace. We hope that you choke ( Read more... )

"The latest is that little animals never before seen are swimming about in a glass of water; they say syphillis is a completely normal disease and no longer the punishment of God. God didn't make the world in seven days, it's said, but over millions of years, if it was He at all. Savages are human beings like us; we raise our children wrong; ( Read more... )

I don't want to be hostile ( Read more... )