Last night I woke up sweating in a panic. I couldn't understand why I was at my mothers house and where was Mead? I swore on heaven and earth that I fell asleep in my bed in Maryland with Mead at my side. I don't understand why now. I mean, it's been almost two months since he left. I just don't understand it ( Read more... )

im getting married in 2 months and a day! what crazy hell life will be in the next 2 months! tomorrow stacey, jackie and i are going to look and fine a place to get me married!! jackies my maid of honor and stacey's my brides maid!!! woot!

I feel really sad right now. I got a letter from Mead today. I should be really excited, right? But after a day of apartment searching with my mother, I really didn't feel like reading what he said. I mean, it wasn't mean or unloveing in the least. Actually, it was about us getting married on his boot leave. Which is a great idea because then I ( Read more... )

i love my mother.

I got a new letter from Mead today. This one was a real one. He sounded so sad. He's real lonely. He said that he can't live without me. He can't wait to come home and really propose to me. I love him so much!

My mother and I have been talking about the wedding. I'm going to go to the library Monday, I hope, and get a few books about cheap

Mead wrote me today ( Read more... )

i think ive grown away from livejournal. i am sorry to dissapoint you all but i dont know if ill ever write in here again.

im broken. it hurts. i feel disgusting and ugly.

i just wish my body was normal again.

this weekend was pretty okay. yesterday sucked hardcore! but.. what can ya do ( Read more... )

i love friday nights!!!!!!!!