OH MY GOD IT FEELS SO GOOD TO BE OUT OF DEBT.......well considering the fact all I did was work 44 hours a week. But those "0"'s look really nice at the bottom where it tells you the balance..

Dancing in my room like a moron... hehehe!

I can be such a looser sometimes hehe laughing at myself again

Maybe i do need a reality check. Who the hell do i think I am?? Im actually nothing. Nothing to my parents, relatives, friends, my co workers. I'm just an annoying leech, just another person to the rest of the world ( Read more... )

Its about 10pm, my stomache hurts from eating so much. I walked thru the door a little bit of an hour ago. I cant even beleive how much fun I had today. I love spending time with Manish. With him its so easy to be me, it feels like everything else is so far away, and all I can do is smile. We started off at Kennedy station, of course he was late ( Read more... )

So its the day after the wedding, finally its all over! But I cant beleive the treatment, I've never met such selfish people in my life. I realize now what my family is worth, and how much i hate the rest of them ( Read more... )

Its been 2 days since I talked to him. Over an hour non-stop chatter. And the more I talk to him I only realize that I cant be with anyone else but him. He is what I want. Why is that I always know when he's not ok, that cloudy feeling is always right. Since Thursday I havent been able to stop thinking of him. Behind all that cover up of being an ( Read more... )

Its only been a week since everything happened. Its not like I had much of a choice especially if he's going to blackmail. I just want to die!! 2 grand under in debt, how am I going to pay all that back without my credit not going bad. gThis is what I get for helping someone out! I can use my savings but that means I cant go back to school! My ( Read more... )

Another night, another party... there he was... walking by me. Its different knowing that he's in the same place as me, than actually seeing him! It bothers me that I know my feelings will never change for him. My one, and my only. Sometimes I think I'm sick in the head, but I know I truly cared for him. It does hurt to know he doesnt feel the ( Read more... )

For the first time in months I feel like, I can finally breathe. Do as I please, go where ever I want without having to answer to anyone. Its sad because I wasn't even in a relationship. He just became psycho and decided to run my life. The burden has been lifted off my shoulders. No more misery, no more sleepless nights, no more crying out of ( Read more... )

I should be studying but here I am writing away about Aleem. I cant beleive this is happening. I've known him since I was 7. Never realized that he always felt this way about me. I knew he cared, but never realized that it was to this extent. We're talking about a man thats engaged for gods sake. I know I can never be with him at this point, ( Read more... )

My first entry... sighs how do I begin this thing ( Read more... )