Ugh. I don't feel that well right now. My stomach is hurting:\. Hanging out with Jess and Jessie tonight. This should be fun=D ( Read more... )

I thought that I could act like nothing was wrong. I thought that I could be ok with it all. I thought wrong, obviously. What the fuck am I going to do? Seriously. I miss him too much. I love him too much to let go, but my heart is breaking more and more everyday. I'm hurting both of us, I think.

Tired, stressed, pissed, and feed up with the "I'm too much of a pussy" act. Well anyways. Hung out with Jessie tonight. I was in a bitchy mood. Talked to Iliana. Man, I miss that girl<3. She's about 4 months pregnant. I can't wait to see her this summer. Hopefully I do. Talked to Erin, vented to her about how I was feeling. I believe I'm getting ( Read more... )

                                                                                I didn't mean it
                                                                     When I said I didn't love you so
                                                                        I should have held on tight
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Went to Carly's funeral today. Went to the showing last night. I bawled, both times. It was so hard. I lost it when Johnny got up there to speak. He barely could. Lori sang. It was all just so hard. Ugh ( Read more... )

How can I feel so.. relieved and happy when at the exact same time I'm being torn into by all the sadness that I'm feeling? I don't understand it, and I honestly wish that I did, because it's tearing me up even more.

Travis and I are well.. idk. Someone I know, and I was pretty good friends with her. We socialized and what not, died.

I'm slipping. More and more everyday ( Read more... )

Are we a match made in heaven?

I still and always will think so.

But, does he?

Jess and Jessie stayed the night last night. I learned THE HARD way that 3 people cannot fit into my bed. I was in the middle, and Jessie was laying flat on his back. Well, Jess and I were on our sides, but she could rotate and what not. I had to stay in the exact same position for a very long time. But, that's ok=D. I had a great time last night, ( Read more... )

What does he want? I mean, really?