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im starting to really miss him. i had pj pants that smelt of his house and i kept them by my pillow so i could smell him but the smell is starting to fade. pathetic huh. i can't help it. i miss him. but i love him so much that i'd reahter miss him hen be without him. thiungs will work, and i guess its ok for me to miss him and i understand hell ( Read more... )

who called me today? oh who? speak up i can't hear you.... PATRICK! haha it made my day it was sooo awesome. im so glad he called me:) he's going to call again on friday. aww i love him. im so happy he called. it was a surprise. i htought he would call like friday or the weekend. but nope. couldn't go that long without talking to me i guess... wow ( Read more... )

so things are ok now. im glad becca drove me there. im glad i got to spend the night there. im glad things were fixed. and now im lonely again. im scared about how things are gonna go. but i think we'll do jsut fine. he left this morning. i hope hes ok. he told me that if i was ok he would be ok too. so im trying to be ok. i can't wait to talk to ( Read more... )

ok... im in this amazing mood. so im gonna write about my friends ( Read more... )

i finished reading perks of being a wallflower... all jsut today. i needed to be alone today... alone or with one of my 2 best friends. wow. 2. one more then the other but thats ok. at least hes talking to me again. and doesn't hate me. he said we're gonna get together some time this week. i dont know if thats gonna happen but i hope it does. i ( Read more... )

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh ( Read more... )

didn't talk to him all day. he isn't here. hes suppose to be. its monday. sent him an e-mail saturday telling him i was excited for monday. well its almost tuesday. wow. its ok. im nothing anyway.
i dont feel like typing anymore.

i finished.... everything but one thing.... i will work on that as soon as im done this. but wow. i spent 4 months on one thing.... and im done... and i feel empty inside... what will my big project be next.... im excited to give it to him tomorrow.... i hope hes still coming tomorrow. even though i have this gut feeling... i'll drown in my tears ( Read more... )

soooooo i woke up this morning at around... 5:30 puking my head off. it was not lovely at all. i had those pains in my tummy again. and they have been coming and going all day. they are certinly not enjoyable. not to mention that i have a stuffy nose that makes me sound very nasle. my head kills and so does my back...and again its not pleasent. but ( Read more... )