He likes somebody else...Why? Why does it still hurt? Why, after all this time, can I not let go? Whenever I see someone that even looks asian, I get really sad, and I hurt. It's not fair, why do I have to keep feeling this away? Why can't all this just leave me alone!? What did I do in a past life to warent this?

Why, why doesn't he love me? What's wrong with me? Am I simply a waste of air? Of flesh? I cared for him so much, and yet, he rejected me. We are simply 'friends'. Yes, friends, we are such good friends, he doesn't talk to me or even acnolage my egsistance. And yet I still love him and want him to love me. My heart still rases when I see him. It ( Read more... )

I think I've spoken about Richie before, just incase, he's this gut I have a MAJOR crush on. Anyway, I'm really lost about him right now. When I first met him, I thought he was really cute and we became friends on facebook. I learned that we liked the same anime and video games, he's funny, smart, and social. I really liked those qualities, but ( Read more... )

So my mom and sister were trying to run some ideas about what I should do with my life, you know, job wise. Well, I'm trying to figure out how talking about what I should do turned into what my sister should do. Um...weren't we trying to help me? The girl without a degree. The girl who's on the edge of killing herself. Not that they really care. * ( Read more... )

Love totaly and uterly sucks.

So, for a very very long time I've had no desire to live. I'm contomplated suicide for what feels like ages. I've never thought beyond the want to do it. However, recently and from recent events, I've finally come up with a plan. There is no call for worry though, I have one thing keeping me tied to life and I think it's going to keep me for a good ( Read more... )

So this morning I came by a house that had 'PROM?' writen out on someone's lawn in Crush cans. The first thing out of my mouth is "Oh my god, that's so cute!" of course my mom just makes fun of it. Stuff like 'they'll never last' and blah blah blah. I always just want to tell her to shut up. Just cause she picked bad doesn't mean we're all going to ( Read more... )

So I was going to enter a writing contest, but the story can't be longer then a thousand words. The shortest I've writen is 1,807 and I feel it's missing substance. A thousand words just isn't enough to actualy set anything up. I feel there's no depth to the stroy. The characters have no feel to them. *sigh* The dead line's soon too. I should just ( Read more... )

If you suck, you shouldn't be able to get published. Bad art can make or break you. If the art is just so freaking ugly that all you can focus on is the art, then the 'good' plot is lost...if the plot was even good to begin with. What am I getting at? Simple, my teacher (who's totally not my friend but still acts like one) told me to read a book ( Read more... )

That's it. I'm duck taping my mouth shut and never taking it off.

me + talking = bad idea

Good thing I've got yellow duck tape. My fav. color.